I don't really care about much anymore. All I know is I need to escape this lifestyle. My normie friends bought girls to my place. I have to pay foids if I want attention. These girls came willingly for fun. I think I was like a zoo attraction, because apparently the normies girlfriend foid wanted to meet me. Isolated, sexless lives, devoid of female attention are greatly inferior to high tier normie and chad lives. Denying it is cope. The closer to chad you are the easier it is to access social groups. Groups give you access to people that have all types of uses. Outcasts are left to socially starve, and view the world through their window of a computer.
I m so fucking depressed. wage slaving and sh*t is bearable if you go home to a foid with feelings for you. And she caresses you, kisses you, and does sexual things to you. Despite all this technology, so many men compete very much for women because they can do so much for you. A foid is more valuable than anything created in this society. You would drop your tv shows or gaming, or drugs to go bang a hot foid. I'm not worshipping women but something in our biology makes us crave them. Just them showing affection by touching you makes your life better.
It's becoming painfully clear that no foid wants me. But I desperately crave a foid to want me. I don't even feel like a man. I'm too dumb to even get an interesting intellectual work to focus on. I would love to do research or something if I was smart enough, but I can only do basic work.
I got so desperate I even started seeing masseuses and getting handjobs. I developed oneitis for one because she realized what I need. She kinda gave me some affection, hugs and kisses. I couldn't tell if it was fake or not. But I paid for it all. I also got her number. She brought up hanging out with me, but excuses came up. All I know is she doesn't want me. None of the women I talk to do.
I'm tired of people lying to me and giving me false hope. I'm tired of people blaming me for my own suffering. I just try again, and am disappointed when I fail at getting a girl to want me. It's just a cycle of struggle, failure, and depression. I need to get out!! Fuck this life!! All that's left is to decide on rope technique or ER plan.
I m so fucking depressed. wage slaving and sh*t is bearable if you go home to a foid with feelings for you. And she caresses you, kisses you, and does sexual things to you. Despite all this technology, so many men compete very much for women because they can do so much for you. A foid is more valuable than anything created in this society. You would drop your tv shows or gaming, or drugs to go bang a hot foid. I'm not worshipping women but something in our biology makes us crave them. Just them showing affection by touching you makes your life better.
It's becoming painfully clear that no foid wants me. But I desperately crave a foid to want me. I don't even feel like a man. I'm too dumb to even get an interesting intellectual work to focus on. I would love to do research or something if I was smart enough, but I can only do basic work.
I got so desperate I even started seeing masseuses and getting handjobs. I developed oneitis for one because she realized what I need. She kinda gave me some affection, hugs and kisses. I couldn't tell if it was fake or not. But I paid for it all. I also got her number. She brought up hanging out with me, but excuses came up. All I know is she doesn't want me. None of the women I talk to do.
I'm tired of people lying to me and giving me false hope. I'm tired of people blaming me for my own suffering. I just try again, and am disappointed when I fail at getting a girl to want me. It's just a cycle of struggle, failure, and depression. I need to get out!! Fuck this life!! All that's left is to decide on rope technique or ER plan.
