So I've tried dating throughout my life (I'm an oldcel in my late 30s, never married and no kids) and it never worked out obviously. I've been ghosted on dating apps by 4/10 fat roasties and in real life, and have had little to 0 success. the only thing that has kept me sane all these years is that i make decent money and ive been escort maxxing for like 12 years now (plus porn maxxing my whole life).
The problem with this hobby/addiction is that it literally ruins and alters your brains chemistry into mush. I am so warped that even if a girl was to agree to a date with me, i almost dont even want to at this point. I literally have had sex and threesomes with dozens of pornstar level women. not only are some of these girls 10/10s, but they fuck like champs too and satisfy whatever desire i want. its an instant dopamine rush and it scratches the "itch" instantaneously. the problem is, you can never achieve this feeling from "normal" girls - for better or worse.
this hobby is the equivalent of starting a game like elden ring and getting your ass kicked incessantly. but instead of exploring, learning the mechanics, and naturally grinding your way to the best gear and skills, you simply "cheat" and unlock everything the best shit all at once. and its fun to get revenge on these monsters who were giving you a hard time, but the novelty wears off quick and then the game gets boring. it ruins the game and you can never play it again. why give back my level 10+ sword in favor of some weak ass pathetic dagger?
at this point i may just end up dying alone. my only other option would be to try and get therapy and rework my brain addiction, but logically is that even worth it? ive tried and it just keeps pulling me back in because the thought of spending $200 bucks on a dinner date with a 5/10 stranger only to not even get a hug/kiss at the end of the night is laughable, when i could just take that same $200 and fuck a 9/10 pornstar and give her a cumshot facial
and even if she did agree to come back home with me and have sex, theres a 99.99999% chance she wont look anywhere near as good as an escort would, nor would she fuck like one. then i would also have to worry about her claiming shes pregnant or i was inappropriate or some shit and now she has my address.
escortcelling has its pros but as you can see it made me undatable. even if i were to get a woman interested, im not even sure if I would want to date HER anymore at this point. its an awful lot of work to keep a woman around. there is a lot of maintenance required in the form of activities, constantly surprising her, buying her shit, supporting her mentally, emotionally, etc.
its so much easier to just bust a nut to whatever porn i like or fuck whatever escort im in the mood for at that particular time. on the flipside im extremely lonely, have no friends (male or female), and cant even do a basic activity like get lunch or go to a movie since i dont have a partner. i cope with all this by satisfying my dopamine addiction
if i keep going down this path of instant dopamine rushes via escorts and masturbation what will eventually happen to me? and can anyone else relate or has this problem?
The problem with this hobby/addiction is that it literally ruins and alters your brains chemistry into mush. I am so warped that even if a girl was to agree to a date with me, i almost dont even want to at this point. I literally have had sex and threesomes with dozens of pornstar level women. not only are some of these girls 10/10s, but they fuck like champs too and satisfy whatever desire i want. its an instant dopamine rush and it scratches the "itch" instantaneously. the problem is, you can never achieve this feeling from "normal" girls - for better or worse.
this hobby is the equivalent of starting a game like elden ring and getting your ass kicked incessantly. but instead of exploring, learning the mechanics, and naturally grinding your way to the best gear and skills, you simply "cheat" and unlock everything the best shit all at once. and its fun to get revenge on these monsters who were giving you a hard time, but the novelty wears off quick and then the game gets boring. it ruins the game and you can never play it again. why give back my level 10+ sword in favor of some weak ass pathetic dagger?
at this point i may just end up dying alone. my only other option would be to try and get therapy and rework my brain addiction, but logically is that even worth it? ive tried and it just keeps pulling me back in because the thought of spending $200 bucks on a dinner date with a 5/10 stranger only to not even get a hug/kiss at the end of the night is laughable, when i could just take that same $200 and fuck a 9/10 pornstar and give her a cumshot facial
and even if she did agree to come back home with me and have sex, theres a 99.99999% chance she wont look anywhere near as good as an escort would, nor would she fuck like one. then i would also have to worry about her claiming shes pregnant or i was inappropriate or some shit and now she has my address.
escortcelling has its pros but as you can see it made me undatable. even if i were to get a woman interested, im not even sure if I would want to date HER anymore at this point. its an awful lot of work to keep a woman around. there is a lot of maintenance required in the form of activities, constantly surprising her, buying her shit, supporting her mentally, emotionally, etc.
its so much easier to just bust a nut to whatever porn i like or fuck whatever escort im in the mood for at that particular time. on the flipside im extremely lonely, have no friends (male or female), and cant even do a basic activity like get lunch or go to a movie since i dont have a partner. i cope with all this by satisfying my dopamine addiction
if i keep going down this path of instant dopamine rushes via escorts and masturbation what will eventually happen to me? and can anyone else relate or has this problem?
