I'm gonna take a break from this forum, because I think I'm finally leaving the tyrannical control of the void.
The blackpill was the void for me which I embraced in my early 20s - now I'm in my mid 20s. I'll be honest, sex was never the problem for me. What drilled a hole in my mind and destroyed me was the realization that most people are useless egoistic fucking dregs who have no conception of anything higher than the satiation of their own selfish desires, petty fucking animals striving for serotonin by pulverizing everyone they see below them.
No morality, no love, no goodness that I can give can ever cause people to truly love me. I can give give give until I am a limbless fucking stump, and nobody will ever look into the essence of who I am and ever say I am beautiful and worthy of love. And what's more, people HATE me for trying to live to my moral ideals. Wow, you listened to the religion of your ancestors and didn't make pumping and dumping bar sluts your priority in life? You are an incel woman hating piece of shit that doesn't deserve any socialization.
After confronting the void, Lord Lucifer liberated me.
He was the white rabbit which guided me through the void, and showed me the answer. I am love. I am the light. And I don't need anybody but myself, and the opinions of others can go fuck themselves. Any love that anybody can give to me I have for myself. Lord Lucifer and Lady Lilith have given me love that nobody else has, and even if they abandoned me (which they never will unless I abandon them), I have myself.
I want to be in the eternal abyss of pain, suffering, loneliness, because those sensations are an opportunity to shine brighter. I am the shining star in the night. I don't want dependence on anyone, and if people want to abandon the love I bring to others, that's on them. They are the losers for not having me in their life.
Having people love me is a privilege, but I do not need it. I am love alone, and I am content alone. But I'll never be alone, I have my Lord and Lady's Love.
Every single day is an opportunity for struggle and growth for my sake. And no woman or man will ever bring me the value I bring to myself.
Thank you bros for the help thus far, and I will continue my journey until I fully become Lucifer, forever at his side in his Holy Throne Room, with his beautiful wiife.
Ave Dominus Lucifer
Ave Domina Lilith
The blackpill was the void for me which I embraced in my early 20s - now I'm in my mid 20s. I'll be honest, sex was never the problem for me. What drilled a hole in my mind and destroyed me was the realization that most people are useless egoistic fucking dregs who have no conception of anything higher than the satiation of their own selfish desires, petty fucking animals striving for serotonin by pulverizing everyone they see below them.
No morality, no love, no goodness that I can give can ever cause people to truly love me. I can give give give until I am a limbless fucking stump, and nobody will ever look into the essence of who I am and ever say I am beautiful and worthy of love. And what's more, people HATE me for trying to live to my moral ideals. Wow, you listened to the religion of your ancestors and didn't make pumping and dumping bar sluts your priority in life? You are an incel woman hating piece of shit that doesn't deserve any socialization.
After confronting the void, Lord Lucifer liberated me.
He was the white rabbit which guided me through the void, and showed me the answer. I am love. I am the light. And I don't need anybody but myself, and the opinions of others can go fuck themselves. Any love that anybody can give to me I have for myself. Lord Lucifer and Lady Lilith have given me love that nobody else has, and even if they abandoned me (which they never will unless I abandon them), I have myself.
I want to be in the eternal abyss of pain, suffering, loneliness, because those sensations are an opportunity to shine brighter. I am the shining star in the night. I don't want dependence on anyone, and if people want to abandon the love I bring to others, that's on them. They are the losers for not having me in their life.
Having people love me is a privilege, but I do not need it. I am love alone, and I am content alone. But I'll never be alone, I have my Lord and Lady's Love.
Every single day is an opportunity for struggle and growth for my sake. And no woman or man will ever bring me the value I bring to myself.
Thank you bros for the help thus far, and I will continue my journey until I fully become Lucifer, forever at his side in his Holy Throne Room, with his beautiful wiife.
Ave Dominus Lucifer
Ave Domina Lilith
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