It's no use, even if you think about the completely fictitious possibility of being "loved", You do not know how to do the same thing, because you learn this from your first relationships in adolescence or at maximum a little later, in my current state this is no longer acceptable not knowing, I do not know how to kiss, I do not know when to hug, I do not know what to say to her to make her feel safe, every moment that I did not live did not fill the part of me that would make things work, I'm incapable to be loved and therefore I am unable to love.
