I get this from everyone, friends, teachers, counselors, all kinds of people. They keep telling me that just because I had bad experiences with people doesn't mean I should be afraid of them. "Not everyone is like that," I keep hearing. One thing I hear a lot is that my friends from high school who turned on me were just immature children, and now that I'm an adult I'll find that there are very respectable people to befriend.
But I know that deep down people don't change. It is excpetionally hard to change someone's worldview and perspective, the only way being to be so hated by society that you swallow the black pill. The way you view others won't change just because you think to yourself "it's time to be mature and respectful now." Those feelings you've had since birth still reside in you, you just get better at hiding it; that's why children are brutally honest about how they feel. But I think hiding things from people can make you a worse person.
When you hide things, it makes you less confrontational, which leads to backbiting and slander, dragging someone's name through the mud without ever talking to the person. I've had this happen to me my entire life. "Ugly, creep, weird, loser, couldn't get a girlfriend even if I tried" - these are just some of the insults I heard thrown around behind my back from elementary school up until now as an adult. The only difference is whereas girls would say I was ugly to my face as a child, they now insist on doing it while I'm not looking, and to add to that tell other girls I'm a creep instead of telling me that I was creepy to my face.
I'm done trying to see the best in people, to make friends. I've pushed so many people away, and I only have two friends, right now. One is someone who's effectively taken the black pill, but very recently gotten a girlfriend so I know will take the blue pill and go astray fast. The other friend I have really does care about me, and tries to make me feel better. But the black pill has made me so embittered and resentful, always seeing the worst in people, that we never agree and this has made him feel terrible about himself. I'd like both these friendships to last, but I know it's a pipe dream. Just as an English-speaking man can't communicate effectively, if at all in a foreign country except with only other English speakers, a black-pilled can't communicate with anyone, only those who've taken the black pill.
tl;dr: People never change, and if they do it's only by taking the blackpill. As people age, they (especially females) refuse to confront anyone and choose to slander them behind their backs instead.
But I know that deep down people don't change. It is excpetionally hard to change someone's worldview and perspective, the only way being to be so hated by society that you swallow the black pill. The way you view others won't change just because you think to yourself "it's time to be mature and respectful now." Those feelings you've had since birth still reside in you, you just get better at hiding it; that's why children are brutally honest about how they feel. But I think hiding things from people can make you a worse person.
When you hide things, it makes you less confrontational, which leads to backbiting and slander, dragging someone's name through the mud without ever talking to the person. I've had this happen to me my entire life. "Ugly, creep, weird, loser, couldn't get a girlfriend even if I tried" - these are just some of the insults I heard thrown around behind my back from elementary school up until now as an adult. The only difference is whereas girls would say I was ugly to my face as a child, they now insist on doing it while I'm not looking, and to add to that tell other girls I'm a creep instead of telling me that I was creepy to my face.
I'm done trying to see the best in people, to make friends. I've pushed so many people away, and I only have two friends, right now. One is someone who's effectively taken the black pill, but very recently gotten a girlfriend so I know will take the blue pill and go astray fast. The other friend I have really does care about me, and tries to make me feel better. But the black pill has made me so embittered and resentful, always seeing the worst in people, that we never agree and this has made him feel terrible about himself. I'd like both these friendships to last, but I know it's a pipe dream. Just as an English-speaking man can't communicate effectively, if at all in a foreign country except with only other English speakers, a black-pilled can't communicate with anyone, only those who've taken the black pill.
tl;dr: People never change, and if they do it's only by taking the blackpill. As people age, they (especially females) refuse to confront anyone and choose to slander them behind their backs instead.
