Discussion It's official. I'm returning to my old job and I feel... good?

[NeverEvenBegan]

I realize now that I was happier when I had a shitty, stressful job...

Simply because I spent all my time being focused on the job. I had no time to sit and think. No time for the rage, envy and sadness to settle in. I sometimes even worked unpaid overtime. Sometimes I worked for 6 days straight. Weekends, night shifts, holidays. The little free time I had, I...

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A little over a week ago, I made a thread talking about my realization that I was ''happier'' when I had a shitty job. It gave me a purpose, I earned my own money, I felt being a ''productive member of society'', and the lack of time meant I couldn't internalize and focus on all my failures.

So I spoke to a former colleague of mine who now got promoted to supervisor. I contacted him on Facebook and I saw he put a photo of his new car in a Facebook Story. He has pics with his girlfriend, pics shirtless at the gym. He's a HTN who is younger than me, looks better, has a car, has a girlfriend. He mogs me to oblivion in every conceivable way and I fucking envy and hate him for that.

But I swallowed my pride, spoke to him, gave him my CV, he sent it to the HR foid, and this week he said I will get a call. He told me I'm basically already hired. It's a call center operator job.

I now feel... hopeful?

I'm now thinking about stuff related to the job. It's been more than 2 years and I'm certain lots of things changed, but I still remember the basics well. I'm now thinking less and less of suicide. I'm not even thinking that much about being a sexless KHHDV. I'm now thinking about getting the documents I need. Thinking about the occupational medicine exams. It's...a bit better now

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I've been miserable as a neet. I think mostly because I couldn't get any sort of neetbux. If only I had a small amount of guaranteed cash... Some sort of UBI. But I was constantly scared I would end up homeless on the streets.

In the past months, I only drained my parents' money. I didn't contribute with anything. It had gotten so bad, that at a certain point, I even felt bad and guilty for eating the food they made me. I felt like I didn't deserve it.

 

[adharmi]

Good for you. Don't fuck up.

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

The truth is, I just crave normalcy. I've always wanted to be just a regular normie.

I will never experience the romance and the friendship parts of the normal core human experience. But having a job like most normies do makes me feel normal. It makes me feel like a human again.

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

Good for you. Don't fuck up.

I will try my best. I know there will be some pressure on me, because I'm not a 'new' employee so they will expect more performance, but I'm not a veteran either. I'm both old and new, I guess.

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

And now that I will have a job, maybe the betabuxxing option is back on the menu?

Not now, but maybe in like 10 years from now, when I'll be in my 40s. Maybe I'll try to find a low tier Becky in her late 30s to betabuxx? We'll see...

 

[Mecoja]

Working sucks but being broke sucks even more, not having money when you need it it's stressful. If the job is bearable, why not. You have a reason to have a routine and leave the house. We only waste time anyway. Neeting makes you became a savage after some time, you forget fow to act and talk to people.

 

[ethniccel1]

I realize now that I was happier when I had a shitty, stressful job...

Simply because I spent all my time being focused on the job. I had no time to sit and think. No time for the rage, envy and sadness to settle in. I sometimes even worked unpaid overtime. Sometimes I worked for 6 days straight. Weekends, night shifts, holidays. The little free time I had, I...

incels.is

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A little over a week ago, I made a thread talking about my realization that I was ''happier'' when I had a shitty job. It gave me a purpose, I earned my own money, I felt being a ''productive member of society'', and the lack of time meant I couldn't internalize and focus on all my failures.

So I spoke to a former colleague of mine who now got promoted to supervisor. I contacted him on Facebook and I saw he put a photo of his new car in a Facebook Story. He has pics with his girlfriend, pics shirtless at the gym. He's a HTN who is younger than me, looks better, has a car, has a girlfriend. He mogs me to oblivion in every conceivable way and I fucking envy and hate him for that.

But I swallowed my pride, spoke to him, gave him my CV, he sent it to the HR foid, and this week he said I will get a call. He told me I'm basically already hired. It's a call center operator job.

I now feel... hopeful?

I'm now thinking about stuff related to the job. It's been more than 2 years and I'm certain lots of things changed, but I still remember the basics well. I'm now thinking less and less of suicide. I'm not even thinking that much about being a sexless KHHDV. I'm now thinking about getting the documents I need. Thinking about the occupational medicine exams. It's...a bit better now

shieeet so long you are happy thats all that matters brocel, life is short so do what makes you happy

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

Neeting makes you became a savage after some time, you forget fow to act and talk to people.

Very true.

I legit don't think I've left the house more than 10 times in the past 6 months.

 

[FoidSSlayer88]

jobmaxxing might be the best cope

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

jobmaxxing might be the best cope

I will try to stay here long term. It's the only job I could hold down for more than 3 months. I can't do anything else.

 

[Emba]

Congratulations!

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

Congratulations!

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

It's time for a 'new' beginning for me.

I wasn't blackpilled yet when I had this job, so I associate it with ''simpler, better times''. I know this job will keep my mind off the blackpill.

I desperately needed this because I couldn't keep going on the path I was on. It was either this, or an heroing, and I don't want to rope until I lose my virginity to escorts and both my parents pass away.

 

[kay']

Good luck and buy copes

 

[NeverEvenBegan]

Good luck and buy copes

Oh yeah, I'm going to cope hard with copes

It's not my time to go just yet.

 

[Emba]

I often returned to old jobs bro...

The trick is to do it kindly and give notice and have some kind of legit sounding reason, like moving or something...