Man, my dad wants me to graduate and continue with an MBA in marketing, even though he knows I’ve lost the will to study. I don’t want to go through all that again. I’m tired of failing and repeating the same cycle. I’ve been doing this kind of rote learning for the last 13 years, and I’m completely exhausted. I wish I had practical skills instead of just memorizing things.
Honestly, I feel like if I had a strong political background, things would have been easier. Maybe teachers would have just increased my marks without questioning me. Life would have been so much better.
I lost the will to study since last September. Even then, my parents still expect a “good future” from me. But what they think is good for me feels like a nightmare. I don’t want to deal with people who judge or bully me again and again. I’ve lost patience with all of that.
Even when my exams are close and I don’t feel like studying, my mom keeps nagging me. She calls my dad repeatedly and pressures me. When I asked her to leave my room, she threatened to call the police because her friend’s husband is one. She even said she would confiscate my phone and that I would end up in a hospital or doing miserable work. That really broke me.
I locked myself in my room and started crying, wondering why my own mother would treat me like this. I felt like the world hates me, especially because I feel different from others. I’ve never tried to harm anyone, yet I feel like my existence is a mistake, like my parents would have been better off without me.
Later, I woke up from a bad dream and realized I feel like an ATM for my parents. It seems like no one wants me if I don’t follow the path they want. My parents say I lie to them and blame my friends, but at least my friends are kind to me. Instead, my parents punish me by taking my phone and ignoring how I feel mentally.
They always bring up how much money they’ve spent on me since childhood, as if that replaces emotional support. I feel like if they had understood me better and helped me become mentally strong, things would have been different.
I also feel like my health has been affected over the years, and I blame my upbringing for that. Even the small things that used to make me happy, like Hot Wheels or Lego, don’t work anymore.i will ropemaxx soon n my mom will be breaking phone soon if my phone survives i will be telling another misery of my life after 3days.
Honestly, I feel like if I had a strong political background, things would have been easier. Maybe teachers would have just increased my marks without questioning me. Life would have been so much better.
I lost the will to study since last September. Even then, my parents still expect a “good future” from me. But what they think is good for me feels like a nightmare. I don’t want to deal with people who judge or bully me again and again. I’ve lost patience with all of that.
Even when my exams are close and I don’t feel like studying, my mom keeps nagging me. She calls my dad repeatedly and pressures me. When I asked her to leave my room, she threatened to call the police because her friend’s husband is one. She even said she would confiscate my phone and that I would end up in a hospital or doing miserable work. That really broke me.
I locked myself in my room and started crying, wondering why my own mother would treat me like this. I felt like the world hates me, especially because I feel different from others. I’ve never tried to harm anyone, yet I feel like my existence is a mistake, like my parents would have been better off without me.
Later, I woke up from a bad dream and realized I feel like an ATM for my parents. It seems like no one wants me if I don’t follow the path they want. My parents say I lie to them and blame my friends, but at least my friends are kind to me. Instead, my parents punish me by taking my phone and ignoring how I feel mentally.
They always bring up how much money they’ve spent on me since childhood, as if that replaces emotional support. I feel like if they had understood me better and helped me become mentally strong, things would have been different.
I also feel like my health has been affected over the years, and I blame my upbringing for that. Even the small things that used to make me happy, like Hot Wheels or Lego, don’t work anymore.i will ropemaxx soon n my mom will be breaking phone soon if my phone survives i will be telling another misery of my life after 3days.
