What do I REALLY want in life? If I live for 100 years what would I really wanna do everyday?
Actually I never find myself dreaming about a luxurious house.
I want a small but self-sustaining system (sort of like a Tesla house). Have a big ass bookshelf with 500+ significant books in it. Math, Cosmology, Computer Science, Philosophy, Linguistics and Literature. And yeah, I wanna live near a mountain. So my best bet would be Utah or Colorado.
I don't like dealing with people. Infact I don't like people in general. If you electronically measured my stress hormone level when I'd to interact with ANY kind of people, it'd be much higher than normal.
So I believe after years of isolation and a deeply rooted belief of "I'm not attractive", my psyche has kind of evolved to find total peace in complete solitude.
So it's not even coping anymore, may be in high school (when my prefrontal cortex was less developed) it was coping. But after reading some Kafka, Nietzsche and Jung (and I have a lot to learn), I realize most people are full of shit. But again, there is this idea of useful idiots. (Look up bonhoeffer's theory of stupidity).
So yeah, may be the incel lifestyle is a blessing in disguise for me. Whatever the flaws I have have contributed to my strength and made me what I am today.
It's funny because I'm having this level of weirdly positive self-reflection on an incel forum. Probably because us incels talk about things the way it is without any filter. But yeah, one thing is sure extroverted incels have it way harder. I hope they evolve or ascend. Thanks for reading.
Actually I never find myself dreaming about a luxurious house.
I want a small but self-sustaining system (sort of like a Tesla house). Have a big ass bookshelf with 500+ significant books in it. Math, Cosmology, Computer Science, Philosophy, Linguistics and Literature. And yeah, I wanna live near a mountain. So my best bet would be Utah or Colorado.
I don't like dealing with people. Infact I don't like people in general. If you electronically measured my stress hormone level when I'd to interact with ANY kind of people, it'd be much higher than normal.
So I believe after years of isolation and a deeply rooted belief of "I'm not attractive", my psyche has kind of evolved to find total peace in complete solitude.
So it's not even coping anymore, may be in high school (when my prefrontal cortex was less developed) it was coping. But after reading some Kafka, Nietzsche and Jung (and I have a lot to learn), I realize most people are full of shit. But again, there is this idea of useful idiots. (Look up bonhoeffer's theory of stupidity).
So yeah, may be the incel lifestyle is a blessing in disguise for me. Whatever the flaws I have have contributed to my strength and made me what I am today.
It's funny because I'm having this level of weirdly positive self-reflection on an incel forum. Probably because us incels talk about things the way it is without any filter. But yeah, one thing is sure extroverted incels have it way harder. I hope they evolve or ascend. Thanks for reading.
