It's both incredibly sad, yet liberating to an extent that, even though i'm barely 20 years old, i've already sort of given up on (normal) life. Such state of mind is, for obvious reasons, blackpill related, but i feel like even prior to joining this community, i never had any aspirations or even a fucking hobby for that matter. I was basically on LDAR mode by default. Perhaps, considering the fact i've been insecure about my subhumanity since like 4 years old and even bullied sometimes, i needed to neutralize the pain by engaging in escapism, which is why i never had enough positive reinforcement to develop myself in that aspect in the first place. However now it's too fucking late. At current point in life i've already gone too far with my depression caused by inceldom and, unlike people my age, i don't strive for a wagie career, family (aka betabuxxing a stretched out roastie), nor do i have enough iq\looks to bussinessmaxx. All i want is to either rope or somehow obtain NEETbux or alternatively find a low effort job, which could possible cover up my very ascetic needs, as now i realize that all i truly need is an internet connection, a computer, some cave to live in and a toilet. It may sound shitty overall, but i'd rather live in such minimalistic conditions with a relatively easy job, than rip my fucking nutsack away by participating in the futile rat race. With all things said, i think one of the biggest advantages of being a blackpilled incel is that you don't have to worry about the lack of funds for normie bullshit such as partying, betabuxxing, vacations (since you probably have a reclusive personality anyway) and therefore can afford to either neetmaxx or atleast not to slave away as hard as other people do.
. On another hand, there's a chance we'll eventually get some advanced AI gfs, but i don't think our castrated soyciety would allow subhuman men to be happy in the near future, so that's a mere mental masturbation.
