It was over for most cels even as mids

[ionlycopenow]

When I was a kid I was already extremely depressed and didn't realize it. I would quite literally LDAR all day. I would try to skip as much school as i could because I was an outcast who was either laughed at or ignored completely. At school I was immensely nervous and would have a lot of break downs because even the teachers treated me like shit and hovered around the popular or well adjusted kids while treating me with disgust.

at home I would quite literally rot all day long playing video games and would become extremely agitated once my parents tried to take them away. I didn't rralize this then but I do now, it's because it was my cope and without it I would have more break downs or become immensely depressed again. I didn't even realize then that while alot of of kids played games too, they still mostly parties, hung out, dated, so on. Truly pathetic to recognize I was pretty much over before I could even start and have been depressed since middle school. I'm assuming alot of cels were similar?

 

[Deleted member 18435]

Yeah I was pretty much the same way growing up. I was never treated as well as others no matter what I did so videogames in my room appealed to me more. Not much has changed but I do wish I had done more as a kid and teenager. Now it's just playing catch up doing things I should have done years ago. Feels like I was born in the wrong reality. Incel problems

 

[ionlycopenow]

Yeah I was pretty much the same way growing up. I was never treated as well as others no matter what I did so videogames in my room appealed to me more. Not much has changed but I do wish I had done more as a kid and teenager. Now it's just playing catch up doing things I should have done years ago. Feels like I was born in the wrong reality. Incel problems

How can you be exactly playing catch-up to things and experiences you were denied? Don't be a cuck with this mindset tbh.

 

[Deleted member 18435]

How can you be exactly playing catch-up to things and experiences you were denied? Don't be a cuck with this mindset tbh.

I'm not being a cuck with this mindset. Perhaps I wasn't being specific enough. When I say "playing catch up" I'm referring to things like moving out, getting my license, and getting a better job to afford these things and other copes. These are all to simply make my quality of life less miserable unlike trying to gain experiences I can't have like sex, relationships, and friendships(things that I was and still am denied to this day obviously). If I could gain those things at all then I wouldn't be here but life has "shown me my place" over and over again. I already know it's over for me in those regards so I'm not even bothering with that.

 

[Deleted member 6214]

Yeah you're right man, I often ask myself how I allowed my grades to drop so bad and why I fell out of love with academia so easily. Looking back, it's obvious, I never realised it but I was very depressed and lonely. I used to hear of people going out after school, having fun while I was just sitting at home playing video games. I always thought the junk food I ate all the time was because I was addicted to it, but the truth is that I was comfort eating to try and cope. Been feeling like shit since I was 14.