Safe, appreciated, loved, like you have found your place in the world, like everything's going to be okay no matter what happens today, that you have someone who looks forward to being back together with you, that you're going to return to eachothers arms and drift off in peaceful sleep together, looking forward to the future and growing steadily as a person
^ 90% of these things I have heard from my only and thus best friend and his gf over the course of 2 years about how it feels to sleep together
It's one thing to hear it in words or see from discord msgs, but it's suicide fuel squared when you see it in action.
When she goes to sleep, my friend would lie down next to her, waists touching, put his arm around her, because this embrace and feeling of safety makes her fall asleep in 1 minute rather than 15, as she drifts off with a half-smile still on her face while she cradles his arm.
Then he gets up and goes to hang out with me.
And I'm supposed to pretend like I'm not destroyed inside.
This is but 1 of a 100 things couples experience that makes up a normal life for them, and we can't even comprehend having that much. It would be an overstatement if I said I was living a half-life.
^ 90% of these things I have heard from my only and thus best friend and his gf over the course of 2 years about how it feels to sleep together
It's one thing to hear it in words or see from discord msgs, but it's suicide fuel squared when you see it in action.
When she goes to sleep, my friend would lie down next to her, waists touching, put his arm around her, because this embrace and feeling of safety makes her fall asleep in 1 minute rather than 15, as she drifts off with a half-smile still on her face while she cradles his arm.
Then he gets up and goes to hang out with me.
And I'm supposed to pretend like I'm not destroyed inside.
This is but 1 of a 100 things couples experience that makes up a normal life for them, and we can't even comprehend having that much. It would be an overstatement if I said I was living a half-life.
