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VirginAutistManlet
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- May 12, 2019
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The older I get, the more experiences I have, I fall lower and lower, just when I think it can’t get any worse, it does, repeatedly. My life is a never ending set of consistent negative experiences. Copes don’t do anything, the older I have got the the potency of copes have reduced significantly to the point of having almost no effect.
It doesn’t matter what I do differently the result is always the same, a negative experience. I have no positive experiences to pull any relief or hope from. Nothing can help me anymore, the ship already sailed off long ago.
You would think by my age (32) that I would have settled into life some how, but the reality is the opposite, I was more settled in my 20s and accepting of this shit then I am now.
Everything is a joke to me, everything is hopeless. I’ve been through too much to ever be able to be ok, if was possible to be okay I would have by now, instead it only gets worse.
It doesn’t matter what I do differently the result is always the same, a negative experience. I have no positive experiences to pull any relief or hope from. Nothing can help me anymore, the ship already sailed off long ago.
You would think by my age (32) that I would have settled into life some how, but the reality is the opposite, I was more settled in my 20s and accepting of this shit then I am now.
Everything is a joke to me, everything is hopeless. I’ve been through too much to ever be able to be ok, if was possible to be okay I would have by now, instead it only gets worse.