Once in awhile I have this phase where I binge watch porn and jack off 5 times , eat the greasiest and sweatiest goyslop known to mankind and LDAR all day. This first month of 2024 is one of these months. Unlike normies who try to be the best version of themselves especially the first month of 2024 I've been destroying me and my body refusing to engage in physical activity and frying my dopamine with porn. I realize the consequences of such habits , yet my brain refuses to get a grip and keeps doing it. I do it usually for a month until I've had enough of this self-destruction and start being active again. I've been clinically depressed unable to get out of my body for the past 10 days. I don't even show any emotions and just go on with my day like nothing bothers but inside I am rotting. I cannot shed a tear and my situation is beyond sad.
