It feels like I've procrastinated my life away since I was a kid. I postponed and never did any sort of self-improvement or productive thing.

[Deleted member 7448]

I've lived in this little bubble since I was a kid, a bubble of staying comfortably at home, browsing the internet and doing stuff on the PC. I'm 26 now and nothing has changed. I've had this vague desire to stop doing this and actually go out and start doing stuff since I was little, but I opted for the comfort zone and all of my free time has been spent in this bubble.

It's weird, my life is so weird if you look at it from a distance. It's like I'm one of those princesses in a tower from stories, isolated from the world and knowing little of it. Except the tower prison is of my own making, I actually wanted to be here.

And now I'm a grown man with no interests, no life experience, no skills, so social life. It's so weird, I'm a literal anomaly among human beings, a sort of weird creature that looks like a human but lived a very different life from an actual human.

 

[Deleted member 15752]

I have involuntarily procrastinated. Simply because I was not allowed to even have a chance at trying things in the first place.

 

[LastGerman]

And now I'm a grown man with no interests, no life experience, no skills, so social life.

We can never catch up at this point

 

[Joker]

And now I'm a grown man with no interests, no life experience, no skills, so social life.

it's literally over for people like us. it's far too late for any change we do even attempt to make to have any meaningful impact whatsoever.
LDAR. fuck life

 

[Big Yikes]

And now I'm a grown man with no interests, no life experience, no skills, so social life. It's so weird, I'm a literal anomaly among human beings, a sort of weird creature that looks like a human but lived a very different life from an actual human.

Same. The years have meshed together and now I feel like a teenager and like an old man at the same time.

 

[Deleted member 818]

I honestly feel like you're me from the future. The similarities we have are uncanny.

 

[Astro1T]

Jesus man its like you are talking about me

 

[Orkcel]

Same. The years have meshed together and now I feel like a teenager and like an old man at the same time.

I relate way too much to OP's post, I want to change atleast for my self though but that never seems to work out.

 

[mylifeistrash]

I've lived in this little bubble since I was a kid, a bubble of staying comfortably at home, browsing the internet and doing stuff on the PC. I'm 26 now and nothing has changed. I've had this vague desire to stop doing this and actually go out and start doing stuff since I was little, but I opted for the comfort zone and all of my free time has been spent in this bubble.

It's weird, my life is so weird if you look at it from a distance. It's like I'm one of those princesses in a tower from stories, isolated from the world and knowing little of it. Except the tower prison is of my own making, I actually wanted to be here.

And now I'm a grown man with no interests, no life experience, no skills, so social life. It's so weird, I'm a literal anomaly among human beings, a sort of weird creature that looks like a human but lived a very different life from an actual human.

I'm just like you except when I got my ass and did stuff I ended up worse off than having done nothing.

 

[Deleted member 10124]

I relate way too much to OP's post, I want to change atleast for my self though but that never seems to work out.

I honestly feel like you're me from the future. The similarities we have are uncanny.

I have involuntarily procrastinated. Simply because I was not allowed to even have a chance at trying things in the first place.

We can never catch up at this point

 

[thebuddhacel]

I'm just like you except when I got my ass and did stuff I ended up worse off than having done nothing.

 

[Deleted member 8353]

I feel somewhat similarly, but few of my supposed choices ever felt much like choices at all. The thing is that there was a time when I actually still tried, and before I gave up on life and rotted in my room for years.

It's not as if I just thought to myself "damn I have these desires to socialize, be accepted by other people, and find a girlfriend, but fuck all that I'd rather rot in my room". The truth is more like this shit stopped seeming attainable to me after years of being treated like subhuman garbage by people, and I've had so many bad experiences with trying to be friends with others irl that I entirely lost the desire to have friends, which then further contributes to my difficulty getting a gf with no social circle.

This is why I've previously claimed that consistent bullying, especially in childhood, (to say nothing of my parents' failings but that's another subject) can ruin your life. Yet if I say anything about it irl, I get laughed at and more or less told that I'm not a man. Meanwhile if a foid tells others about how she was raped once, she gets endless support. Even if we disregard those foids who aren't telling the truth, I can say with near certainty that I'd have rather been raped. Not because I think it would've been anything less than a horrible experience, but due to the fact that at least it only would've been one horrible experience of getting attacked and humiliated as opposed to a seemingly unending amount of them.

Grass is greener and all that, but I know from first hand experience what being treated like a punching bag and an involuntary jester does to you after years of the bullshit. The point of all this is I think most people still blissfully possess the illusion of choice, whereas I was robbed of mine after having felt powerless throughout pretty much my entire childhood experience, it ruins your mind in so many ways that I wouldn't even know where to start if I were to make a more detailed thread about it. However I think you should ask yourself why you decided to stay in your room for so many years, as there must have been a reason why a life full of nothing seemed more desirable than at least making an effort.

 

[FlamingCel]

It's not our fault.Self improvement would do little for us.

 

[iKillCucks]

I've done alot in my life socially wise but other than that I'm just like you i never really ventured out in other aspects and I'm 25 as well. I've just done what I know

 

[JellyJam]

I've done alot in my life socially wise but other than that I'm just like you i never really ventured out in other aspects and I'm 25 as well. I've just done what I know

Same age. What a mess. Feel like a teen in a grown mans body. Same place I was when I was 18

 

[BodyFat10orRope]

Same. I have wondered often if it's the satisfaction you get from masturbation that allows for it. Imagine you could never orgasm without a woman's help. Wouldn't you lose it and become extremely restless sitting in your room?

 

[mcfroggy]

I've been ldaring before I even knew about it. Other than going to school I just sat on the computer. When you're ugly and therefore become antisocial from bad treatment, ppl have no expectations from you. My parents didn't let me go out, and they didn't give a shit if I was miserable on the computer every summer. No clubs, no instrument lessons, no sports, no summer camp, not even driving me to friends house. It hurts all the more BC they do all this for my younger sibling.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

I've been ldaring before I even knew about it. Other than going to school I just sat on the computer. When you're ugly and therefore become antisocial from bad treatment, ppl have no expectations from you. My parents didn't let me go out, and they didn't give a shit if I was miserable on the computer every summer. No clubs, no instrument lessons, no sports, no summer camp, not even driving me to friends house. It hurts all the more BC they do all this for my younger sibling.

My parents actually pushed me to go out, we even had fights about me staying holed up in my house all the time, not going out the entire summer. But I didn't want to go out for some reason.

 

[iblamemyself]

It's time to get out and do something, but don't expect too much. Whatever I can do from home, I do it from home.

 

[mcfroggy]

My parents actually pushed me to go out, we even had fights about me staying holed up in my house all the time, not going out the entire summer. But I didn't want to go out for some reason.

Your body knew it was over before your mind knew, prbly. Body remembers rejection very well.

 

[YogiBear]

I blame education system. I had good grades A, B. But there was so much pressure to compete i burned out. I blame also parents when i was doing well they just made it worse.

Trying to compete as an incel is extreme burnout fuel. You can't make it, just fake it. Even fake it imposible tbh.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

But I didn't want to go out for some reason.

i can tell you what "some reason" is

unless you have inherited status or good genes, as soon as you're 8-9 years old you start getting very little out of going outside, mostly just getting challenged or turned away in some fashion

very soon it becomes easier to just stay inside, there's nothing that pleasant outside anyway, in fact, there is a constant stressor to be found outside: getting challenged with no way to "win" by kissing some girl or impressing people who are hawk-eyed at analyzing status and physical potential only

this is where cucks become extremely, irrationally angry because, theoretically, some groups will allow you hang around as a punching bag jester, yeah... that guy doesn't get any respect nor pussy past 1987, so cut the shit, cucks

 

[WheelsofConfusion]

I've been ldaring before I even knew about it. Other than going to school I just sat on the computer. When you're ugly and therefore become antisocial from bad treatment, ppl have no expectations from you. My parents didn't let me go out, and they didn't give a shit if I was miserable on the computer every summer. No clubs, no instrument lessons, no sports, no summer camp, not even driving me to friends house. It hurts all the more BC they do all this for my younger sibling.

I feel like I wrote this post myself.. now I have grown up to be an awkward Kiddult who attempts to communicate on the level of my peers but fails. I learned just enough social skills for minimum functioning and that’s it. This was all due to the factors you mentioned. Now my life is over since all those years are gone. You can’t play catch up as an adult

 

[Deleted member 17606]

Relatable

 

[mylifeistrash]

i can tell you what "some reason" is

unless you have inherited status or good genes, as soon as you're 8-9 years old you start getting very little out of going outside, mostly just getting challenged or turned away in some fashion

very soon it becomes easier to just stay inside, there's nothing that pleasant outside anyway, in fact, there is a constant stressor to be found outside: getting challenged with no way to "win" by kissing some girl or impressing people who are hawk-eyed at analyzing status and physical potential only

this is where cucks become extremely, irrationally angry because, theoretically, some groups will allow you hang around as a punching bag jester, yeah... that guy doesn't get any respect nor pussy past 1987, so cut the shit, cucks

Deadly accurate

Going outside in my all white neighborhood was competitive and brutal. Kids, ages 9-14 or so all tried to dominate each other, divide up into the "cool kids" vs the poorer kids and just get into fights and random bullshit all the time. It was honestly pretty shitty.

Playing sports at that age was even worse. Everyone was just aggressive and angry as hell, even the coaches for a shitty pointless kids team. Even city funded basketball courts I go to have signs asking adults not to be angry and upset over a kids match.

I honestly hope the kids of the mobile generation are staying inside and playing games all day. Other than the unhealthy / obesity (and later on hypergamy) part, it's probably the best thing to happen to male children.

 

[Deleted member 11032]

I feel somewhat similarly, but few of my supposed choices ever felt much like choices at all. The thing is that there was a time when I actually still tried, and before I gave up on life and rotted in my room for years.

It's not as if I just thought to myself "damn I have these desires to socialize, be accepted by other people, and find a girlfriend, but fuck all that I'd rather rot in my room". The truth is more like this shit stopped seeming attainable to me after years of being treated like subhuman garbage by people, and I've had so many bad experiences with trying to be friends with others irl that I entirely lost the desire to have friends, which then further contributes to my difficulty getting a gf with no social circle.

This is why I've previously claimed that consistent bullying, especially in childhood, (to say nothing of my parents' failings but that's another subject) can ruin your life. Yet if I say anything about it irl, I get laughed at and more or less told that I'm not a man. Meanwhile if a foid tells others about how she was raped once, she gets endless support. Even if we disregard those foids who aren't telling the truth, I can say with near certainty that I'd have rather been raped. Not because I think it would've been anything less than a horrible experience, but due to the fact that at least it only would've been one horrible experience of getting attacked and humiliated as opposed to a seemingly unending amount of them.

Grass is greener and all that, but I know from first hand experience what being treated like a punching bag and an involuntary jester does to you after years of the bullshit. The point of all this is I think most people still blissfully possess the illusion of choice, whereas I was robbed of mine after having felt powerless throughout pretty much my entire childhood experience, it ruins your mind in so many ways that I wouldn't even know where to start if I were to make a more detailed thread about it. However I think you should ask yourself why you decided to stay in your room for so many years, as there must have been a reason why a life full of nothing seemed more desirable than at least making an effort.

 

[TINMAN]

Same. I have wondered often if it's the satisfaction you get from masturbation that allows for it. Imagine you could never orgasm without a woman's help. Wouldn't you lose it and become extremely restless sitting in your room?

This is exactly what used to happen, before the invention of all these copes. That's basically what "civil unrest" refers to. You think it's roasties who get angry enough to burn down buildings when society goes to shit? No, it's high T fucks with too much time on their hands. These days that type of guy just spends his time jerking off and desperately trying to ignore the world falling apart around him, some of them go even further and become literal fucking cucks.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

i can tell you what "some reason" is

unless you have inherited status or good genes, as soon as you're 8-9 years old you start getting very little out of going outside, mostly just getting challenged or turned away in some fashion

very soon it becomes easier to just stay inside, there's nothing that pleasant outside anyway, in fact, there is a constant stressor to be found outside: getting challenged with no way to "win" by kissing some girl or impressing people who are hawk-eyed at analyzing status and physical potential only

this is where cucks become extremely, irrationally angry because, theoretically, some groups will allow you hang around as a punching bag jester, yeah... that guy doesn't get any respect nor pussy past 1987, so cut the shit, cucks

You're right. When you think about it, a child staying at home even when pushed outside by his parents is abnormal, right? So why the hell would I want so badly to spend all my time in front of a monitor? I used to think that it's because real life was boring and only what's on the PC was fun, but the true reason is that real life was boring for ME, because it offered me nothing, I couldn't be a part of normal groups, I was too much of a weakling.

Isn't it amazing though how people can judge your social status in a second? I guess my social skills were so bad that I was immediately the weird and quiet kid when people saw me, so I couldn't possibly become a part of a group. And I guess at a certain point this just made me more antisocial, more quiet, with worse social skills, and I came to believe that I was the avoidant one who hated social interactions. But I remember that as a very young kid I would get excited about interacting with others. That changed, I don't remember how or when.

 

[inceldaygamer_]

I've lived in this little bubble since I was a kid, a bubble of staying comfortably at home, browsing the internet and doing stuff on the PC. I'm 26 now and nothing has changed. I've had this vague desire to stop doing this and actually go out and start doing stuff since I was little, but I opted for the comfort zone and all of my free time has been spent in this bubble.

It's weird, my life is so weird if you look at it from a distance. It's like I'm one of those princesses in a tower from stories, isolated from the world and knowing little of it. Except the tower prison is of my own making, I actually wanted to be here.

And now I'm a grown man with no interests, no life experience, no skills, no social life. It's so weird, I'm a literal anomaly among human beings, a sort of weird creature that looks like a human but lived a very different life from an actual human.

I'm the same expect I'm gonna be 30 next month. I've got quite a few hobbies and interests.

I totally relate to you when you say you feel like an "anomaly" I feel exactly the same. Like an alien.

I can't relate to normies with real life experiences, I can only relate to what videos games I was playing at each stage of life.

I made a thread about it.

I am 30 and still live in my childhood bedroom.

I think when you are this far gone there is no coming back and you're only option is to do something weird like approachmax (like I do) but for my youtube channel, rather than any weird aspiration.

 

[wizardcel]

I've lived in this little bubble since I was a kid, a bubble of staying comfortably at home, browsing the internet and doing stuff on the PC. I'm 26 now and nothing has changed. I've had this vague desire to stop doing this and actually go out and start doing stuff since I was little, but I opted for the comfort zone and all of my free time has been spent in this bubble.

It's weird, my life is so weird if you look at it from a distance. It's like I'm one of those princesses in a tower from stories, isolated from the world and knowing little of it. Except the tower prison is of my own making, I actually wanted to be here.

And now I'm a grown man with no interests, no life experience, no skills, so social life. It's so weird, I'm a literal anomaly among human beings, a sort of weird creature that looks like a human but lived a very different life from an actual human.

You're falling for the bluepill mindset. Blaming yourself for something which was out of your control. If you were good-looking, you would've got a lot of attention and positive reinforcement from people. The little Staceys would've invited themselves over to your house to study with you in your bedroom. People would've made a huge effort to include you in any activity. If that didn't happen, it's because you were ugly. People did not want to interact with you, so they left you alone.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

You're falling for the bluepill mindset. Blaming yourself for something which was out of your control. If you were good-looking, you would've got a lot of attention and positive reinforcement from people. The little Staceys would've invited themselves over to your house to study with you in your bedroom. People would've made a huge effort to include you in any activity. If that didn't happen, it's because you were ugly. People did not want to interact with you, so they left you alone.

Well, there were one or two instances in the past where some guys invited me to hang out. But by that time I was already avoidant so I rejected the few offers I ever got. I do wonder, was I born avoidant? I think I remember being a kid and actually going through my parents' phone book inviting their friends to my birthday party. So I was clearly not avoidant then. But at a certain point I did become extremely avoidant. I wonder what happened?

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

Deadly accurate

Going outside in my all white neighborhood was competitive and brutal. Kids, ages 9-14 or so all tried to dominate each other, divide up into the "cool kids" vs the poorer kids and just get into fights and random bullshit all the time. It was honestly pretty shitty.

Playing sports at that age was even worse. Everyone was just aggressive and angry as hell, even the coaches for a shitty pointless kids team. Even city funded basketball courts I go to have signs asking adults not to be angry and upset over a kids match.

I honestly hope the kids of the mobile generation are staying inside and playing games all day. Other than the unhealthy / obesity (and later on hypergamy) part, it's probably the best thing to happen to male children.

yes that level of competition is obviously a big problem, i can't even imagine team sports, even playing soccer in a parking lot had kids getting incredibly irate at me for kicking too hard or some bullshit

though tbh one of the worst is when people just have that "fuck you, got mine" attitude, or "pulling the ladder up", so you have people treating you like shit and trying to keep you out even if you are roughly equivalent in status and physical assets
try to join up with some average losers, and it ends with them shitting all over you anyway

that's one of my most prominent memories because it's so crass and unfair that it's memorable
eh probably just what happened when boomers completely checked out of society and decided to just watch TV roughly around the 80s, while their kids created a ridiculous jungle society for youths of backstabbing, winner-takes-all and girls having "relationships" and "sex lives" at age 12

 

[Ghost]

I feel somewhat similarly, but few of my supposed choices ever felt much like choices at all. The thing is that there was a time when I actually still tried, and before I gave up on life and rotted in my room for years.

It's not as if I just thought to myself "damn I have these desires to socialize, be accepted by other people, and find a girlfriend, but fuck all that I'd rather rot in my room". The truth is more like this shit stopped seeming attainable to me after years of being treated like subhuman garbage by people, and I've had so many bad experiences with trying to be friends with others irl that I entirely lost the desire to have friends, which then further contributes to my difficulty getting a gf with no social circle.

This is why I've previously claimed that consistent bullying, especially in childhood, (to say nothing of my parents' failings but that's another subject) can ruin your life. Yet if I say anything about it irl, I get laughed at and more or less told that I'm not a man. Meanwhile if a foid tells others about how she was raped once, she gets endless support. Even if we disregard those foids who aren't telling the truth, I can say with near certainty that I'd have rather been raped. Not because I think it would've been anything less than a horrible experience, but due to the fact that at least it only would've been one horrible experience of getting attacked and humiliated as opposed to a seemingly unending amount of them.

Grass is greener and all that, but I know from first hand experience what being treated like a punching bag and an involuntary jester does to you after years of the bullshit. The point of all this is I think most people still blissfully possess the illusion of choice, whereas I was robbed of mine after having felt powerless throughout pretty much my entire childhood experience, it ruins your mind in so many ways that I wouldn't even know where to start if I were to make a more detailed thread about it. However I think you should ask yourself why you decided to stay in your room for so many years, as there must have been a reason why a life full of nothing seemed more desirable than at least making an effort.

I can relate except I'm toughmaxxed.

People FEAR me IRL and think I'm psycho cuz I'm too quiet

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

You're right. When you think about it, a child staying at home even when pushed outside by his parents is abnormal, right? So why the hell would I want so badly to spend all my time in front of a monitor? I used to think that it's because real life was boring and only what's on the PC was fun, but the true reason is that real life was boring for ME, because it offered me nothing, I couldn't be a part of normal groups, I was too much of a weakling.

Isn't it amazing though how people can judge your social status in a second? I guess my social skills were so bad that I was immediately the weird and quiet kid when people saw me, so I couldn't possibly become a part of a group. And I guess at a certain point this just made me more antisocial, more quiet, with worse social skills, and I came to believe that I was the avoidant one who hated social interactions. But I remember that as a very young kid I would get excited about interacting with others. That changed, I don't remember how or when.

Yeah, I mean just remember what it was like being really young, it was pretty natural to be outgoing for most, then it suddenly got a bit unpleasant.

I feel like the reason youth groups are so brutal and cutthroat is that adults checked out completely at some point, if some chad shithead wants to be the fucking voodoo shaman of the tribe and control everything... he can do just that.... no impediments.

If the shithead shaman wants to define being cool as being a bully, doing drugs, fucking at the earliest age possible, whatever, he can do just that, since he counts on adults just watching TV cooped up somewhere like zombies while their kids are out.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

I can relate except I'm toughmaxxed.

People FEAR me IRL and think I'm psycho cuz I'm too quiet

I'd love to be toughmaxxed. I have great anxiety of bumping into past acquaintances on the street due to some cringe, embarrassing and traumatic events for me from the past, that these past acquaintances might have heard of. If I were toughmaxxed it would be different psychologically. I'd love it if people feared me. But I'm a scrawny dude with a fat belly and narrow shoulders and tiny wrists, wearing thick glasses and a balding head. Ain't nobody gonna fear me.