I've been properly isolated for about a year or two now, and you're right, it's maddening, but every time I am around others I wish I was alone again. I just can't get along with others anymore, I don't know whats wrong with me, I don't feel human. I swear to hell I'm not exaggerating.
People either make me angry or miserable, and always jealous,
incredibly, jealous, every bloody time I speak to see someone, or hear them talk about themselves and their damn life. The same goes for most online interaction too, even here.
I can't stand it, man. I'm so tired of being alone, but there isn't a single human on the fucking planet I feel remotely similar to, remotely close to.
Not in the slightest. God, I wish I was NT. I wish I had a typical body. I wish I had a typical life.
I'm the worst kind of human in existence, not a redeeming attribute, there is no one below me. I hope the next life holds better days.