I've always been extremely alone,
My mom from when I was a baby would refuse to pick me up, love me or interact with me due to schizophrenic delusions that Satan had implanted the baby into her and i was somehow the spawn of Satan
Moving into very early starting years of school is when it went downhill, I could talk to people etc. Long story short, I've never had a friend, meaningful interaction, parental love etc and instead just coldness and abuse from those who are supposed to love me
One day I was laying on my bed, face down in my pillows crying about how alone I felt
When suddenly I felt a woman place her hand on my back. I could feel her hand was slender and cold. And she said in a soft voice, almost motherly but also like she was going to cry herself, that its all going to be okay for me
And somehow in my brain I knew this was mother nature. When she left I spent hours trying to get her to come back, begging, crying, praying etc
Before I realised she wanted me to be with nature. From this point on I became a full weirdo. I'd go out and hug trees just to try and absorb and steal their energy. I'd spent hours alone in the woods because it made me feel I had friends, I'd fall asleep in fiekds under the sun because I could feel the grounds enerfy
But thankfull I'm better noe
My mom from when I was a baby would refuse to pick me up, love me or interact with me due to schizophrenic delusions that Satan had implanted the baby into her and i was somehow the spawn of Satan
Moving into very early starting years of school is when it went downhill, I could talk to people etc. Long story short, I've never had a friend, meaningful interaction, parental love etc and instead just coldness and abuse from those who are supposed to love me
One day I was laying on my bed, face down in my pillows crying about how alone I felt
When suddenly I felt a woman place her hand on my back. I could feel her hand was slender and cold. And she said in a soft voice, almost motherly but also like she was going to cry herself, that its all going to be okay for me
And somehow in my brain I knew this was mother nature. When she left I spent hours trying to get her to come back, begging, crying, praying etc
Before I realised she wanted me to be with nature. From this point on I became a full weirdo. I'd go out and hug trees just to try and absorb and steal their energy. I'd spent hours alone in the woods because it made me feel I had friends, I'd fall asleep in fiekds under the sun because I could feel the grounds enerfy
But thankfull I'm better noe
