Is what our lives are destined to be? Living alone due to our mental illnesses working away just to survive while everybody else gets to live much more fulfilling lives experiencing love, sex and friendship. Everytime I Try to make a change it feels like this cosmic force in the world comes in to put a stop to it, even outside of dating it feels like the world is doing everything in it's power to stop me from succeeding, I'll get a job and than get laid off 3 months later, I find a way to make money until it doesn't work anymore to the point I start losing the money I gained while having to pay for bills and groceries with no income.
Almost everybody goes through struggles but nobody goes through as bad as us, I've tried so many pills and techniques to stop my OCD mind from torturing and nothing has worked well enough for me to feel normal again, I have no girlfriend to lean or to share my experiences with and I tried to make friends but everybody I met in real life and online are nothing like me, They don't have my experiences and they don't like the things that I like and even If i found someone like them I would never really be able to trust them as normalfags have back stabbed me so many times when I was trying to find friendship.
But friendship wouldn't be enough, it doesn't fill that desire that's quite literally programmed into our biology. I need a girlfriend and I need to have passionate loving sex with her. Normalfags love to pretend sex/love isn't important in life while almost all of the media consume are either about sex and love or contain sex and love, They talk about it all the time, They have it all the time and yet they have audacity to tell us it's not important, Just fuck off.
Almost everybody goes through struggles but nobody goes through as bad as us, I've tried so many pills and techniques to stop my OCD mind from torturing and nothing has worked well enough for me to feel normal again, I have no girlfriend to lean or to share my experiences with and I tried to make friends but everybody I met in real life and online are nothing like me, They don't have my experiences and they don't like the things that I like and even If i found someone like them I would never really be able to trust them as normalfags have back stabbed me so many times when I was trying to find friendship.
But friendship wouldn't be enough, it doesn't fill that desire that's quite literally programmed into our biology. I need a girlfriend and I need to have passionate loving sex with her. Normalfags love to pretend sex/love isn't important in life while almost all of the media consume are either about sex and love or contain sex and love, They talk about it all the time, They have it all the time and yet they have audacity to tell us it's not important, Just fuck off.
