Venting Is thinking about scenarios and legit getting angry/pretending they're going to happen normal?

[jerrycan dan]

I was in the kitchen today and one of my family members gave me a bad look. For whatever reason my brain ran roughshod over what was actually happening around it and I started thinking about what would happen if my family member got a knife and tried attacking me. My brain went off on an autistic tangent about how I would take the knife off them in self defence and half-saw their head off from the front, stopping at the spine, before ringing the ambulance about my stab wound and telling them because their hatred for me was inside their head and the body is controlled from the head I was using reasonable force in taking their head off. My body tensed up as I was thinking about it and as I was slicing a bread roll with a knife my body was legit telling me to defend myself if attacked. I'm not a total spaz though and I wouldn't do it IRL because I'm not violent and nuts, I just keep having thoughts about it and it bugs me.

Just now I heard noise outside my door, I started to think about how it was my mum bringing a new guy home that she was going to have sex with and I got unbelievably fucking angry. I stormed out of the door, looked around, and saw my brother had a friend over and was talking to him so I calmed down.

Not sure why my autistic brain keeps thinking about angry and violent things for no reason, I am not violent and have no reason to be violent but the scenarios and stories waxxed by my brain seem more real to me than they should.
Is this normal for some people or is there an actual issue here that can be fixed somehow?

 

[Deleted member 14577]

This is definetly on the spectrum my guy.
I do it to though, I sometimes start pacing around my room and act out conversations when I'm alone. You're as bad as me but still yours is not something to regularly share with normies.

 

[jerrycan dan]

You're as bad as me but still yours is not something to regularly share with normies.

I know that's why I'm posting it here
normies would never understand anyway and put me in a pidgeon hole for this

 

[Deleted member 1410]

I have far stranger thoughts than that...and often talk to myself outloud. that's why I get banned from places

 

[Deleted member 14577]

I know that's why I'm posting it here
normies would never understand anyway and put me in a pidgeon hole for this

I meant to say you are not as bad as me but you get the point

 

[Emba]

I use to have violent fantasies in public until I noticed people flinching away from me. It's very handy for bus rides through violent parts of town Tbh.

Not when waiting for needed services.

 

[Deleted member 16455]

Yes and it usually involves a foid

 

[Yvan]

I do this kind of stuff all the time and it is nerve wreking. Basically i can't shut off my brain. Millions of toughts are invading my mind and i can\t make them stop. I realised that this happends most of the time when i am alone or really stressed out...

 

[CedCel]

normies would never understand anyway and put me in a pidgeon hole for this

I live with a bunch of normies, and recently they talked about this exact same shit. I kept my mouth shut, but they were basically sharing what you shared... only in their case it was all fun and games and cool and edgy, 'haha bro that's weird don't go crazy on me mh kay' 'nah bro i'm not THAT psycho', and all the foids were giggling like they just heard a fucking standup routine.
it's a joke to them, and the reason they get to talk about this shit is that they're fucking normies. don't ever tell them this shit, the moment you're incel you're automatically not entitled to sharing without being labeled a creepy killer. it's only acceptable when you're above 8/10.

 

[seija]

Yes I've been doing this ever since I was little as a stress reliever from life and a way to vent my problems & emotions.

 

[Deleted member 4159]

I have these same exact fantasies every hour of every single day. They feel real, and I act them out in my room. It's a miracle I don't have a criminal record.

 

[ReallyRice]

I have these moments too tbh, but they're mostly very short of nature

 

[jackwolfskin999]

Not normal to think it's not normal. If I had no control to my dark urges I would have killed half the people I've met

 

[Evildоer]

I have violence fantasies everyday, i consider them to be a part of my normal state.