Venting Is it unreasonable to feel solipsistic about death as an incel?

[jerrycan dan]

Every time I go to bed I think about the fact that I am one sleep closer to dying. I think a lot about subjects associated with death, I play video games which involve death on a massive scale (strategy because my motor skills are too poor to enjoy FPS games) with armies and such (moreso death as a concept than death as blowing people's heads off). I think a lot about what would happen if x and y thing happened and that usually involves death too.

Death is bullshit honestly. Life is not great but what comes after it is complete nonexistence. A few years ago I wouldn't have cared but I have now gained a better grasp of what nonexistence feels like. It's not going to sleep forever, it's not being at peace, it's simply just you not existing. Nothing. Everything is gone. One of my few copes that doesn't involve digital or material entertainment (reading stuff, vidya, funposting, food and drink, etc) is being able to enjoy the fact that I exist, have an inner monologue capable of realising I exist and narrating my existence, and being able to experience simple things around me which are kind of neat. When you are dead that's all completely gone because there is nothing at all, words cannot describe the void I see myself approaching. It'll be like nothing happened at all. Redditors say "lol u were dead for billions of years before that dont be scared" but realistically there will be no billions of years because there will be nothing.

Is it unreasonable to be solipsistic about death, especially as an incel? You leave no kids behind, you will leave no valuable works behind because you were either too talentless or too outcasted by society to create anything of note that will continue beyond you. Nothing that normal people can cope with and tell themselves is a legacy after they're dead, you have access to. The only thing death has in store for you is your inner world going kaput, no legacy. The world as I experience it will completely disappear and go black. It feels like nothing will exist after I die, because I am so detatched from the world around me, that the world as I perceive it is so dependent on an inner experience that I am holed up in, that it might as well not exist to me after "me" (my ability to experience and exist) is gone. I honestly don't give a shit other people will continue to experience things after me because they all hate me and have no connection to me, the world might as well not exist 60 years from now at most.

It is honestly terrifying. If somebody has a cheat to turn this hardcore mode game on this shit minecraft spawn we call Earth into a survival game please send it over, I don't want everything to completely disappear even if what's here sucks.

 

[Deleted member 12355]

I am of the firm belief that there is still hope, even for the most deformed, most autistic, most miserable incel, provided they have an IQ of 110+ and the dedication necessary to devote themselves to one thing, and one thing only, namely that of survival. You see, we're living at the end of civilization. If the collapse wont come in our life time, it'll certainly arrive within a couple generations after our death. The earth is running out of organic resources, there's a new ice age coming, our societal institutions are collapsing thanks to the invasion of previously homogeneous white countries. Out in the wild, foids have to settle for those most apt at survival. The selection criteria will alter dramatically as society comes tumbling down. Currently, in our day and age it's all about looks, but in 100 years, possibly even sooner, it will be all about survival. You can call it a cope, but nothing of what I said is factually incorrect. Civilization has only existed during the blink of an eye in humanity's vast history

 

[Mainländer]

Nonexistence is better than existence tbh. We're just attached to this here.

 

[Deleted member 14577]

When it comes to death, the idea of an afterlife is absurd to me. I understand why some choose to believe in it and I s why it makes sense to a lot of people but I still don't believe it, in the end it doesn't matter if you believe or not since you still have a survival instinct and it is in your interest to survive. I don't believe in the afterlife and I believe that's a guess.

You know how when a lightbulb is turned off or breaks and light stops shining on the room, does the light go anywhere? No, lights energy moves on to other forms of energy but the light itself didn't move to some other place it stopped shining. That's the easiest way I can explain my view on death, the body (lightbulb) is still there but brainwaves are no longer active, your neural impulses have ceased ("your" light).

Redditors say "lol u were dead for billions of years before that dont be scared" but realistically there will be no billions of years because there will be nothing.

Is it unreasonable to be solipsistic about death, especially as an incel?

I'd say it isn't unreasonable even if you're not an incel, people that want to leave something behind usually want to do that as a form of self-actualization it's a great cope tbh, wish I could cope that way.
The years before your birth were nothing aswell.

I am of the firm belief that there is still hope

Great post, glad you have hope. I fluctuate between being hopeful and hopeless but I think deep down I'm still hopeful otherwise I wouldn't be sad and angry about my inceldom, if I was truly hopeless I'd accept my life as genetic waste.

 

[Rice Cel]

We need to immortalmax. Stay in good health until technology advances far enough and they can download your brain into another body

 

[Six]

We need to immortalmax. Stay in good health until technology advances far enough and they can download your brain into another body

Spoiler

That's never going to happen.

 

[Rice Cel]

Spoiler

That's never going to happen.

Go ER

 

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