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32yo, white, 5'5 4-6 out of 10 face, broke neet.
From 14 to 23 I worked almost everyday, then I got an invisible neurodegenerative disease, which zapped my energy to the point of having trouble doing normal daily tasks, but despite this exhaustion society says I'm still suppose to produce and contribute just like everyone else.
Because I don't look like a crippled retard, I've been ostracized by normies, peers and friends. Maybe a fakecel because I 'went out' w/ a girl in 6 grade when I was 13, but the 6' kid I befriended kept telling me to write these odd notes to her, which I did, but his goal was to get her to break up with me, which she did. I didn't kiss, hug or handhold her. He snatched her a year later in 8th grade. Then he moved and I went to same HS as her.
We were friends for four years and I could tell she liked me, but she still picked my taller friend to fuck, and then the burly, tall star linebacker in senior year knowing I was going to ask her to the dance, which I did, but was one day late. I never attended a dance. I jestermaxxed as this 'extrovert' weirdo but deep down inside I knew I was a prop used to make normies and Chad laugh. That summer I remember messaging her about how we should hang because I missed doing stuff with her, her friends and my normie friends, and she never messaged me back again.
Is it over, can I still ascend? Sometimes I get this extreme urge to just move to a shitty European country to lookmax and larp as a rich, confidant guy. I don't think that's possible. I have the urge to become an electrician, but then I see everything I have to do and how expensive it'll be, and I get fatigued just thinking about it.
All I really have is a good family. If it wasn't for them I'd be sleeping on the street with the local crackhead.
From 14 to 23 I worked almost everyday, then I got an invisible neurodegenerative disease, which zapped my energy to the point of having trouble doing normal daily tasks, but despite this exhaustion society says I'm still suppose to produce and contribute just like everyone else.
Because I don't look like a crippled retard, I've been ostracized by normies, peers and friends. Maybe a fakecel because I 'went out' w/ a girl in 6 grade when I was 13, but the 6' kid I befriended kept telling me to write these odd notes to her, which I did, but his goal was to get her to break up with me, which she did. I didn't kiss, hug or handhold her. He snatched her a year later in 8th grade. Then he moved and I went to same HS as her.
We were friends for four years and I could tell she liked me, but she still picked my taller friend to fuck, and then the burly, tall star linebacker in senior year knowing I was going to ask her to the dance, which I did, but was one day late. I never attended a dance. I jestermaxxed as this 'extrovert' weirdo but deep down inside I knew I was a prop used to make normies and Chad laugh. That summer I remember messaging her about how we should hang because I missed doing stuff with her, her friends and my normie friends, and she never messaged me back again.
Is it over, can I still ascend? Sometimes I get this extreme urge to just move to a shitty European country to lookmax and larp as a rich, confidant guy. I don't think that's possible. I have the urge to become an electrician, but then I see everything I have to do and how expensive it'll be, and I get fatigued just thinking about it.
All I really have is a good family. If it wasn't for them I'd be sleeping on the street with the local crackhead.
