I havent actually thought about why i always have a pen on me until this question lol, i actually am holding one write now, whenever i go out for a walk i always pick up a pen from my night stand and bring it with me, even if im just going to the grocery store, i never forget it
i dont even really click the pens, as a cap style pen is also fine
i just always want to be ready for a deal with god, i keep waiting for god to come to the bargaining table....to finally offer me something, to finally give me freedom
god actually saves me really often, i get really lucky very often but I still havent had my prayer of a foid i can love
maybe if i keep carrying my pen, god will let me have a foid that i can hug