I had a vivid dream last night in which I was cuddling with my oneitis in bed. I could feel her hot breath as she was whispering in my ear and the warmth of her skin against mine. Because she's a TA for one of my lab courses this semester, I see her about once a week, even if just a few glimpses when she's walking around the lab. But that little bit is enough to guarantee a rent-free stay in whatever dream I have that night.
These days I'm trying to work on my dream recall by taking a few minutes as soon as I wake up to recollect and write down what happened in dreams. I used to do this diligently when I was a freshman in high school because I was interested in lucid dreaming but eventually got lazy.
I know it's self-sabotage, but having intimacy in a dream feels so good and real in the dream that I almost don't mind how deathly I feel when I wake up. Especially last night, I could literally feel the oxytocin flooding my entire body with warmth and comfort while I was embracing her in my dream. And I woke up feeling a little bit satisfied almost, like my desperate need for touch had been fulfilled even the tiniest bit. Pretty cool what the mind can do.
These days I'm trying to work on my dream recall by taking a few minutes as soon as I wake up to recollect and write down what happened in dreams. I used to do this diligently when I was a freshman in high school because I was interested in lucid dreaming but eventually got lazy.
I know it's self-sabotage, but having intimacy in a dream feels so good and real in the dream that I almost don't mind how deathly I feel when I wake up. Especially last night, I could literally feel the oxytocin flooding my entire body with warmth and comfort while I was embracing her in my dream. And I woke up feeling a little bit satisfied almost, like my desperate need for touch had been fulfilled even the tiniest bit. Pretty cool what the mind can do.
