Notkev
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Might get banned or something for bragging but I'd rather be honest here.
I was always an above-average kid when it came to intelligence. I was the best I'm school for the most part and pretty much in highschool before college. I was also athletic and did martial arts AND I was taller than most guys. I also knew a relative liked me back then (2 or 3 years younger) but I sperged out and it didn't work. Plus her family were close relatives and wouldn't let it happen anyway.
So when I was starting college, which was during covid and all that, I really thought I had some sort of advantage over other guys and that I was gonna get girls left and right, given the fact that I had gotten accepted to a uni that other smart ass "nerds" get accepted to. That was about 4 and something years ago.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
My experience in college was what led me to the rp, then mgtow, and eventually to bp and then here.
I was alone from the start. The fact that the first 3 semesters were effectively online didn't help either. Only some surface level bs "how you doing today buddy" crap. Made few friends here and they'll find their way into a forum like this eventually given their looks.
I realized the reality of my life. The thing I had been lied about to my face by my parents for all this time. It was all bullshit. I was ugly, that was the reality of my life.
At the start of the fourth semester I met a girl I had never seen before. I developed a crush on her. I didn't initiate because I knew a girl like her wouldn't give me a chance. She eventually sent me a happy birthday on instagram when she saw my story. It was just the picture of a cake. I tried to ask her out. Failed. She was not even interested in chatting. I would later see her with numerous other dudes. Yeah, the shy nerdy quirky cute "introverted" girl doesn't exist. She knew I was fucked, just wanted to play with me.
Now I'm here. College is ending. And I have not had a girlfriend or fucked a girl yet.
Still no hanging out with any friends, and I don't even have a job.
I was always an above-average kid when it came to intelligence. I was the best I'm school for the most part and pretty much in highschool before college. I was also athletic and did martial arts AND I was taller than most guys. I also knew a relative liked me back then (2 or 3 years younger) but I sperged out and it didn't work. Plus her family were close relatives and wouldn't let it happen anyway.
So when I was starting college, which was during covid and all that, I really thought I had some sort of advantage over other guys and that I was gonna get girls left and right, given the fact that I had gotten accepted to a uni that other smart ass "nerds" get accepted to. That was about 4 and something years ago.
I couldn't have been more wrong.
My experience in college was what led me to the rp, then mgtow, and eventually to bp and then here.
I was alone from the start. The fact that the first 3 semesters were effectively online didn't help either. Only some surface level bs "how you doing today buddy" crap. Made few friends here and they'll find their way into a forum like this eventually given their looks.
I realized the reality of my life. The thing I had been lied about to my face by my parents for all this time. It was all bullshit. I was ugly, that was the reality of my life.
At the start of the fourth semester I met a girl I had never seen before. I developed a crush on her. I didn't initiate because I knew a girl like her wouldn't give me a chance. She eventually sent me a happy birthday on instagram when she saw my story. It was just the picture of a cake. I tried to ask her out. Failed. She was not even interested in chatting. I would later see her with numerous other dudes. Yeah, the shy nerdy quirky cute "introverted" girl doesn't exist. She knew I was fucked, just wanted to play with me.
Now I'm here. College is ending. And I have not had a girlfriend or fucked a girl yet.
Still no hanging out with any friends, and I don't even have a job.
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