I was trying to go in as a voluntary patient without losing my freedom and being locked in one of those psych ward things, but they will only allow those who are extremely suicidal and homicidal. I insisted I was not suicidal which is partially why they decided to give me outpatient care instead. Of course that means I have to wait some time for an assessment and appointment, I am going into one of those group therapy type things, which is going to be hell. I think this is kind of pointless but might be worth a try. That place was terrible anyway glad I did not get forced to be there. The whole time I was extraordinarily aware of how hideously ugly my face was constantly glancing at reflections and mirrors and muttering that I want to die. My social skills suffered even more due to my self consciousness and lack of confidence.
