I am a ghost, I am invisible, I don't exist. No girlfriend, no job, no friend, not even pictures of me anywhere. But it's not a new thing for me.
I was always a nobody. When I was a kid, my mother confused me with my brother, even though I was an only child. After all, my parents still believe that it's my brother, the only child.
At school, nobody was aware of my existence. The teacher always signed me absent, even when I was there. When I was actually absent, she didn't notice it.
Other people had passions and hobbies. My hobby was breathing air.
I am forever a stranger, including to myself. When I look at the mirror, I can't recognize me.
I never made any friends. I thought that it would've been a problem only in school, because I didnt' know how vital for adulthood being a normally integrated person and having friends is. For instance, it's impossible to find a job when alone. And I am less than alone.
Because of this, after school I was forced to become a hikikomori. I couldn't go anywhere, nobody wanted me anywhere. It's obvious that I'm not a part of society, but it was not my choice, I never had a chance to enter. I spent my whole life at its edge, in the twilight zone.