It gets very bad because I don't know how to compose myself socially when I'm off the alcohol. I've literally pissed on myself interacting with co-workers, especially toilets.
I have a usual set time that I go hide and drink so I can stop my random assburgers muttering and awkward movements/social interactions. (Which is about this time now heh) I usually just stay quiet and focus on waging when on alcohol so it helps me.
I do it later in the day because I sometimes have to drive heavy armored vehicles in the earlier part of the day and I don't want to hit or kill anyone.
But I just feel sad that I need this shit to function or have a normal conversation with any female that isn't my family..
It got so bad at one point that I received a complaint against a co-worker because I get nervous around Asian toilets. They said that I was acting schizo around them which I'm not xd.
I seem to be normal online, or at church around people I know, but even then I still feel slightly discomfort or sad because I think something bad will happen if I accidentally do or say something wrong.
I have a usual set time that I go hide and drink so I can stop my random assburgers muttering and awkward movements/social interactions. (Which is about this time now heh) I usually just stay quiet and focus on waging when on alcohol so it helps me.
I do it later in the day because I sometimes have to drive heavy armored vehicles in the earlier part of the day and I don't want to hit or kill anyone.
But I just feel sad that I need this shit to function or have a normal conversation with any female that isn't my family..
It got so bad at one point that I received a complaint against a co-worker because I get nervous around Asian toilets. They said that I was acting schizo around them which I'm not xd.
I seem to be normal online, or at church around people I know, but even then I still feel slightly discomfort or sad because I think something bad will happen if I accidentally do or say something wrong.
