I hate it when I have experiences and I learn something that I could’ve learned a year ago or 2 perfectly. I hate that the information I’ve learned about the topics I currently love have only come from the past 2 years and I regret not being interested in them as a child. I hate when I see those far younger than me learn this material knowing I wasn’t like them. Now that I’m 18 I don’t have the satisfaction of having learned complex knowledge and talking about specific topics that the average adult doesn’t know. I associate a lot of the stuff I learned and experiences I had by certain time periods in life and wish I could’ve picked up this information or had these experiences before that time period. I hate the fact I didn’t sign up earlier on this website for example I wish I signed up in 2020. I hate the fact that if I do have accomplishments in the future that i didn’t accomplish them earlier. I despite it when I see fun or interesting events that happen during a certain year and the fact that I wasn’t aware of it or I was and brushed it off. It’s so unfair that I didn’t accumulate this knowledge I have about these topics at an earlier or younger age. That i could’ve spoke about this in 2017/2018 as a younger child but had good discussions with those older than me that wasn’t just “memes”. I hate seeing those younger having experiences that I either never had or have had them far later. For the experiences I haven’t had even if I in the future have had them I’ll always regret not doing it earlier. I’ll never have the satisfaction knowing I did this earlier in my life. I wasted my fucking teenage years for something that served me no purpose as a grown man. I regret the time I could’ve spent learning the information I accumulated now. I regret the experiences I could’ve had with friends I see no point in getting into things this late in my life that people started when I was younger. Even if I wanted to play video games or watch anime what would be the fucking purpose if it’s this late in my life it’s best I don’t get these interests plus they’re a waste of time.
