Where I live, the temperature is starting to increase and it is turning to spring. Although most normies look forward to this annual seasonal turn, I dread it. I prefer the overcast skies of autumn and the winter snow. When everything is dead outside I, being dead inside, am at home in my surroundings. But when the weather turns "good" like it is doing now, then the normies have their day and I begin to suffer. They go out and enjoy the sun…
Today, I was walking out of my PE class, already feeling like a complete loser because I was too inept to talk to a girl I am attracted to in the class. I was walking back to my room to take a shower. Now in between the building of my room and the PE gym, there is a clearing of green grass. As I passed by, I saw this 10/10 blond Chad demi-god lounging on the grass in the company of FOUR girls. They were all skinny and athletic, and one of them that was sitting closest to Chad (a white 10/10 Stacy) was especially beautiful. That may have been his girlfriend. Chad was clearly basking in the glow of the moment—he had so much female companionship it was disgusting. Society has devolved into a sexual hierarchy, no less unjust than the ancient system of royal concubines. Chads today may not be kings in a political sense, but they're still kings—and they have their harems. Meanwhile I go home and type BS on this website and would probably get expelled if my school found out I had an account here. I am under debilitating sleep deprivation from the difficulty of my classes (I am a STEM-cel), with multiple deadlines fast approaching, and in the midst of it I never cease to be reminded of my loneliness.
I tried to do one of my homework assignments tonight while I was eating dinner at the dining hall (grind-cel), but I hadn't gotten far before I became overwhelmed by the debauchery surrounding me. I was facing a window and it was already dark so I could see the reflections. Directly behind me, a gay couple was practically making out. Behind and to the side, a pretty Asian girl and her boyfriend were having dinner together. They are probably going to have sex tonight even though it is a week-night. They might be doing it right now. I'm going to be sick. My head hurts because I can't sleep enough and I am starting to get dependent on energy drinks again.
Today, I was walking out of my PE class, already feeling like a complete loser because I was too inept to talk to a girl I am attracted to in the class. I was walking back to my room to take a shower. Now in between the building of my room and the PE gym, there is a clearing of green grass. As I passed by, I saw this 10/10 blond Chad demi-god lounging on the grass in the company of FOUR girls. They were all skinny and athletic, and one of them that was sitting closest to Chad (a white 10/10 Stacy) was especially beautiful. That may have been his girlfriend. Chad was clearly basking in the glow of the moment—he had so much female companionship it was disgusting. Society has devolved into a sexual hierarchy, no less unjust than the ancient system of royal concubines. Chads today may not be kings in a political sense, but they're still kings—and they have their harems. Meanwhile I go home and type BS on this website and would probably get expelled if my school found out I had an account here. I am under debilitating sleep deprivation from the difficulty of my classes (I am a STEM-cel), with multiple deadlines fast approaching, and in the midst of it I never cease to be reminded of my loneliness.
I tried to do one of my homework assignments tonight while I was eating dinner at the dining hall (grind-cel), but I hadn't gotten far before I became overwhelmed by the debauchery surrounding me. I was facing a window and it was already dark so I could see the reflections. Directly behind me, a gay couple was practically making out. Behind and to the side, a pretty Asian girl and her boyfriend were having dinner together. They are probably going to have sex tonight even though it is a week-night. They might be doing it right now. I'm going to be sick. My head hurts because I can't sleep enough and I am starting to get dependent on energy drinks again.
