And i kinda mean that in the literal sense. Because one of my reoccuring strategies when facing a problem, or a conflict was, (and still is to a lesser extend) to flee, to run/walk away from it. I will now provide a few exemples.
- Dad was angry at me because i once again failed at a simple task, and shouted at me. In turn i would leave his apartment, and walk either back to my moms or i'd just aimlessly walk arround until he would've cooled down.
- Got bullied at school by my peers. My response was to simply walk out of the classroom, or wait for the next break and then leave.
- Got in trouble with my moms boyfriend. Again, same response. I'd just get up and leave.
There're plenty more situation in which i'd exhibit this behavior, of which i could tell you, but i guess you get the point.
The thing is that i'm apparently incapable of actually facing my problems head on. I have become so avoidant, through this learned behavior, that i essentielly lost all the confidence in my ability to actually fix any of the many issues that i have.
- Dad was angry at me because i once again failed at a simple task, and shouted at me. In turn i would leave his apartment, and walk either back to my moms or i'd just aimlessly walk arround until he would've cooled down.
- Got bullied at school by my peers. My response was to simply walk out of the classroom, or wait for the next break and then leave.
- Got in trouble with my moms boyfriend. Again, same response. I'd just get up and leave.
There're plenty more situation in which i'd exhibit this behavior, of which i could tell you, but i guess you get the point.
The thing is that i'm apparently incapable of actually facing my problems head on. I have become so avoidant, through this learned behavior, that i essentielly lost all the confidence in my ability to actually fix any of the many issues that i have.
