Was always a very macabre person, enjoyed the darker aspects of life to some degree. Started out with toxicology and dangerous animals as a child.
Then in the teenage years I liked documentaries about war crimes (especially documentaries about Himmler, the Unit 731, the KZ doctors like Mengele, Rascher, Clauberg). This was also the time where I read many medical books (mostly about parasites/hereditary diseases/deformations/infections and procedures with aesthetic looks like a fasciotomy) and where I started to obsess about true crime (especially the Monster Of Florence) as well as crime scene footage and extreme movies (like A Serbian Film or Cannibal Holocaust).
When I read stories I always want angst to some degree, the more panic the better (not physical pain, but purely emotional pain). The last books I read were mostly about medieval torture/executions and sex crimes. Still I am a very edgy man with my most recent obsession being the Dirlewanger Division which is for me the epitome of brutality. I also always love the villains in movies/TV series ngl (especially the Boltons from GoT). And I also have many depressive thoughts and always think about the worst possible outcome and about catastrophes that could happen.