Venting In between a teen and a 80 yo man

[TheJester]

I do Yoga, Meditation, shower, start going gym next year again.

I take my Meds, swallow my supplements, do skin care and whatever.

But MAN do i feel old - mentally old. So old its like I live on a different plane of existence then most 20 yos.

Then again I still behave like a teen.

Look for "teen love" (obviously not with anyone below 18) - watch Youtube Videos (even tho its just Blackpill, politics, finances).

Still have contacts to my parents, my parents visit me once a month or i visit them.

Constantly nagged by my shitty family members "wHEre is YoUr GIrlFrIEnd?"

I still have so many toys of my childhood in my current apartment because I only have a 6m2 bunker. I try to sell it on eBay but nobody wants that junk.

I have like 20000 pokemon cards in this one locker, no idea what to do with it. I already threw my Yugioh cards into the garbage because they had a combined worth of like 20€.

I also constantly still think about my Highschool years. Like disgusting bullying towards me.

And yet still better then the current state.

I feel old just walking around people, especially due to my Social Anxiety.

I also cant talk with Gen Z guys because EVERYTIME I try it they get creeped out by me because I know WAAAAAY more shit then them, not just General shit, but like "Cosmic shit" and i dont have "Gen Z social media" never had. They are all crazy in my eyes and i am crazy in theres.

I had always better talks to male teachers and profs or generally older people then I ever had to my peers.

I also cant stop Jestermaxxing, its just my identity.

My Jestermaxxing is so strong it attracts people but for the wrong reasons. Maybe i should have just done youtube or Twitch like that Ishowspeed asshole. Just some dumb low inhibit nigger who became "famous" from idk playing or just being an idiot in the open.

But now I think i literally am too old for Social Media shit.

I also dont have the time and my goal for next year is to Limit phone and internet useage.

The internet cant give me anything more either.

I dont watch porn, i dont play games for years, i blocked reddit, i recently downloaded Instagram and was just SHOCKED ofc i aint spending another Minute on it, Snaps gone as well.

Aint interested in youtube either.

Really...i spend most of my phone usage on fucking incels.is.

I just wait for Artifical Super Intelligence to take over the whole net and call it a day.

Its all over now. 80 yo stuck in body of 25 yo who behaves like 14 yo.

 

[Grodd]

In conclusion it never fucking began

 

[I Gotta Survive]

dnr

 

[TheJester]

dnr

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I can relate, I feel old too, yet I’m so young in the conventional sense. I feel old in my mind and I feel old when I walk around and see people on the street. Seeing all the couples and women who will never look in my direction.

My experiences, or lack thereof, have hindered my normal development, which is why my mind is such an abomination.

 

[nevergetsanybetter]

In conclusion it never fucking began

 

[smegma producer]

i can help you find the value of pokemon cards you got. some cards is worth more than you think

 

[TheJester]

i can help you find the value of pokemon cards you got. some cards is worth more than you think

No they are not its all german prints only Japanese or English prints have true value.

 

[smegma producer]

No they are not its all german prints only Japanese or English prints have true value.

even German cards got value, sure not the same level as japanese or english. Any old EX cards could still fetch 20 + in ok condition. if you got any cards with a stamp like this they could potentially fetch a 2-3 euro each in ok condition:

 

[TheJester]

even German cards got value, sure not the same level as japanese or english. Any old EX cards could still fetch 20 + in ok condition. if you got any cards with a stamp like this they could potentially fetch a 2-3 euro each in ok condition:

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I already looked around my entire collection is worth 1400€ max.

I also would need to let some cards graded. But thats just a hassle.

 

[smegma producer]

I already looked around my entire collection is worth 1400€ max.

I also would need to let some cards graded. But thats just a hassle.

decent value. And grading is kinda unnecessary, unless you wanna hold onto cards for long. if you just wanna get money fast sell them ungraded. I only bother grading cards if they are 50-100 +, beyond that is kinda pointless. And if your gonna sell use sites like cardmarket, ebay buyers are less serious in my experience.

 

[cripplecel]

I feel mentally and physically old because I have horrible hip range so I can barely bend over and I think like a 50 year old preparing for retirement. Atleast one of these things are good.

 

[TheJester]

I feel mentally and physically old because I have horrible hip range so I can barely bend over and I think like a 50 year old preparing for retirement. Atleast one of these things are good.

Brutal. 20 yo thinking about early retirement and NEET until death because nothing makes sense and or is reachable from that position.

 

[Hoppipolla]

I do Yoga, Meditation, shower, start going gym next year again.

That ALL sounds way more mature than me (other than the shower lol) and I'm much older than you so I guess you'll be fine in the end ^_^