Brutal I’m trying to leanmaxx again and developed an eating disorder JFL

[Vision]

I’ve never been a fatcel but I used to work out on and off throughout my 20s and although I’ve seen progress, I absolutely hated how bloated my face used to be and didn’t have the patience to keep bulking and then cutting. Right now, my number 1 priority is leanmaxxing to lose every bit of facial fat and I’m already skinny as fuck as it is I don’t give a fuck about muscles anymore

Not too long ago, I was consistent with leanmaxxing for awhile and I could see my jaw and cheeks starting to get hollow and looking sharp, I truly felt great about myself. I’ve been going through a rough patch lately and my eating habits hasn’t been great, so it’s back to square one unfortunately. I’m trying to restrict my calories to 500-1000 a day. It takes a ton of willpower at times but I just have to tough it out. My relationship with food is terrible now, to say the least.

Is anyone else on the same boat or starvemaxxed before?

 

[Acorn]

I'm starvemaxxing currently. I've always been a skinnycel but for some reason the past few years I've gained a significant amount of weight.

Increase in face fat is the worst which is the main reason why I'm starvemaxxing

I was 80kgs around 2 weeks back, now I'm 75 and planning to keep going until I'm around 68-70

 

[WhitepillOverdose]

Just be careful, I don't think some fat in the face area is bad. I used to weight ~110kg back in the day. Then I went to gymmaxxing and then I ended up leanmaxxing. Now I have around 72kg and tbh, I think my face looks even worse now than back then. The fat in face area used to hide most of my face imperfections. On a bad morning I look kinda like Trevor Reznik with even worse eye bags. Sometimes I think about going back to at least 100kg. At least I used to have some respect since people knew it wont be so easy to push me around. But I am lazy even to overeat now. The only thing better now than before is my blood pressure.

 

[Vision]

I'm starvemaxxing currently. I've always been a skinnycel but for some reason the past few years I've gained a significant amount of weight.

Increase in face fat is the worst which is the main reason why I'm starvemaxxing

I was 80kgs around 2 weeks back, now I'm 75 and planning to keep going until I'm around 68-70

Yeah, that’s the only reason I’m doing it too. Having face fat is such a subhuman look and I can’t stand it.

 

[Vision]

Just be careful, I don't think some fat in the face area is bad. I used to weight ~110kg back in the day. Then I went to gymmaxxing and then I ended up leanmaxxing. Now I have around 72kg and tbh, I think my face looks even worse now than back then. The fat in face area used to hide most of my face imperfections. On a bad morning I look kinda like Trevor Reznik with even worse eye bags. Sometimes I think about going back to at least 100kg. At least I used to have some respect since people knew it wont be so easy to push me around. But I am lazy even to overeat now. The only thing better now than before is my blood pressure.

I hear you man, I’m not trying to look like a auschwitz victim with an extremely bony face. You definitely have a point about having more weight being a deterrent from people thinking they can bully you. I still prioritise my face atm over frame/weight though

 

[fedded]

Is anyone else on the same boat or starvemaxxed before?

I used to starvemax when I first moved out, I was taking Xanax while simultaneously not being able to afford more than 2 small meals a day, I was at 55kg at my lowest weight, now, around 4 months sober I'm up to 83kg, still quite lean and defined, just feels unnatural to me.