
onyxorion
Despised, Never adored and forever ignored
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- Joined
- Jun 1, 2025
- Posts
- 135
Everyday I see ppl being carefree and spending my monthly grocery bill on alcohol just to impress while I'm calculating the calories of a pasta packet just to see what will keep me fuller for longer.
Starving myself just to save money and food.
Everyday I wake up, 3 different problems show up to my life.
Having to beg for parents to cover collage rent every time it's due although they agreed to pay. They unleash whatever stress they have during the day on me and making threats to cut me off for god knows what reason.
Dealing with suicidal thoughts Everyday from 2018 up until now so my grades suffer and parents verbally assault me over the phone. Told my mom but got lectured about how people have it worse then me.
Having to avoid crackheads who recognized my face and pick me out from the crowd because I looked them in the eye.
Being am incel as well desiring relationships but not being able to.
The weather being ass as well.
The constant comparison to siblings who had more stable at home lives then me.
Worrying about being robbed on the daily as well.
It's all so tiring proves, everyday I fight to stay alive but you can't always be strong.
Everyday I fight the urge to rope but I wouldn't be surprised if I roped before the end of this year.
Starving myself just to save money and food.
Everyday I wake up, 3 different problems show up to my life.
Having to beg for parents to cover collage rent every time it's due although they agreed to pay. They unleash whatever stress they have during the day on me and making threats to cut me off for god knows what reason.
Dealing with suicidal thoughts Everyday from 2018 up until now so my grades suffer and parents verbally assault me over the phone. Told my mom but got lectured about how people have it worse then me.
Having to avoid crackheads who recognized my face and pick me out from the crowd because I looked them in the eye.
Being am incel as well desiring relationships but not being able to.
The weather being ass as well.
The constant comparison to siblings who had more stable at home lives then me.
Worrying about being robbed on the daily as well.
It's all so tiring proves, everyday I fight to stay alive but you can't always be strong.
Everyday I fight the urge to rope but I wouldn't be surprised if I roped before the end of this year.