Venting I'm tired, Alfred.

[Deta97]

I'm tired.

And I want to scream, cry, and so on. But I don't, because I know that at the end of the day no one in the world would care, and even if they did, they wouldn't understand.

I don't want to hear empty promises.

I don't want words of comfort; it doesn't change the fact I'm alone and have nothing going for me.

If this is my life, then what the hell am I doing here?

No matter how much I try, no matter what I do, I can't decide what I want to do or how to navigate this. Is this my destiny, to be alone forever?!

I don't want to be here.

I should've kept my tincture and done myself in. It would've been better that way, yet I'm not even allowed to die!

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

 

[Dominic Marsden]

batman

 

[zd60]

I used to feel the same for awhile but at some point it faded completely away and now I feel nothing, I miss feeling a little spark of something but these days its all the same emptiness and numbness

 

[Cnidoblastos]

It's over

 

[Deta97]

I used to feel the same for awhile but at some point it faded completely away and now I feel nothing, I miss feeling a little spark of something but these days its all the same emptiness and numbness

I guess it's about the same, to some degree.

Either I feel numb, sorrowful, bitter and angry, and sometimes having that feeling that if I were to watch something terrible happen to someone, I probably wouldn't care.

 

[zd60]

I guess it's about the same, to some degree.

Either I feel numb, sorrowful, bitter and angry, and sometimes having that feeling that if I were to watch something terrible happen to someone, I probably wouldn't care.

Honestly i'd be glad you still feel anything, I can't feel anything anymore even if i seen something terrible happened to someone i'd just feel the same emptiness

 

[Deta97]

Honestly i'd be glad you still feel anything, I can't feel anything anymore even if i seen something terrible happened to someone i'd just feel the same emptiness

Thanks! I mean, despite how I feel, and the many disappointments, especially with every connection turning out to be a scam, I have this hope that somehow refuses to die.

I don't even want sex, I just want a girl I can talk to and all that, without having to pay an arm and a leg for it. Or an irl friend who understands and won't just abandon me over one mistake. That's pretty much all I ask.

 

[zd60]

I completely understand exactly how you feel, I haven't had any friends in years they've all abandoned me and every one i've tried to be friends with since has all failed. Sometimes I think i'm going insane from all the isolation these days but I probably already have gone insane

 

[Zaraj11]

A man can do what he wills, but he cannot will what he wills