Honestly, as painful as it was, I think some good came out of this experience.
For the one thing I've noticed was that as I got closer to learning the truth, that I was getting bamboozled, I remember how often they'd pull away whenever I start asking questions.
And while it hurt, I had a feeling it was a control tactic to keep me in line, because who likes abandonment?
But luckily, I was alreasy onto them after all the red flags I've been given, and the more they did that, the stronger my became to know the truth, because I hate ambiguity and deception.
And long story short, I did some digging and collected evidence, and after I confronted the catfisher with it, they insisted on denying it.
I walked away, mourning over the time and energy I've wasted on that person, as well as the fact I was tricked into drawing a porn model without consent. And I fell into despair.
But in the end, I got back up, and yeah...
Few months later, I'd have a former friend show up in my DMs after we haven't spoke in 2 years. And she was considerably nice and friendly, but I remember how toxic she was, which was why I left in the first place. And as she's said, "she's still the same". Nevertheless, I gave her a chance, but then she went silent on me mid conversation for days, and though I got a little uneasy, thinking I might've messed up, I recognized what was happening, and this is how narcissist operate when they feel slighted. And so, I blocked her, because I have standards, and I'm not about to have someone toy with my emotions ever again.
So, with that... I'm thankful for the heartbreak; it made me stronger. And had I not gone through it, I would've ended up in a cycle of misery, which I would not be able to escape.
For the one thing I've noticed was that as I got closer to learning the truth, that I was getting bamboozled, I remember how often they'd pull away whenever I start asking questions.
And while it hurt, I had a feeling it was a control tactic to keep me in line, because who likes abandonment?
But luckily, I was alreasy onto them after all the red flags I've been given, and the more they did that, the stronger my became to know the truth, because I hate ambiguity and deception.
And long story short, I did some digging and collected evidence, and after I confronted the catfisher with it, they insisted on denying it.
I walked away, mourning over the time and energy I've wasted on that person, as well as the fact I was tricked into drawing a porn model without consent. And I fell into despair.
But in the end, I got back up, and yeah...
Few months later, I'd have a former friend show up in my DMs after we haven't spoke in 2 years. And she was considerably nice and friendly, but I remember how toxic she was, which was why I left in the first place. And as she's said, "she's still the same". Nevertheless, I gave her a chance, but then she went silent on me mid conversation for days, and though I got a little uneasy, thinking I might've messed up, I recognized what was happening, and this is how narcissist operate when they feel slighted. And so, I blocked her, because I have standards, and I'm not about to have someone toy with my emotions ever again.
So, with that... I'm thankful for the heartbreak; it made me stronger. And had I not gone through it, I would've ended up in a cycle of misery, which I would not be able to escape.
