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azakhan
OG failure
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- Joined
- Oct 1, 2019
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It's funny how people think just because you're ugly and quiet you have to be smart. And honestly I like to larp as a smart person but recently I've been doing math test for my finals and now I see how stupid I truly am. All those years in school and when I was (still am) homeschooled I was doing bare-minimum to pass and now it shows. I feel sick honestly. I have so many personal issues and now I also have those stupid exams, they are in May but this week I have practice ones in school to see how the offical one looks like which means I have to go to school for the first time in 2 years since I started to be homeschooled.
With my luck I will probably not even be on the list or something like that, fucking hell I've never been closer to actually roping than now. It's not even about the exams just all the shit starts to overwhelm me honestly. Fuckton of health issues, depression, being ugly and stupid and now this I feel like I can't take it anymore.
If I'm suicidal with such minor issues how am I going to survive? I can't imagine myself having a job or anything like this. I think deep down I always thought I would be dead by now. I'm 18 for one month and I already miss being a teenager not even mentioning childhood. Anyway, sorry for how shitty it was written I just woke up and my brain is a mess.
With my luck I will probably not even be on the list or something like that, fucking hell I've never been closer to actually roping than now. It's not even about the exams just all the shit starts to overwhelm me honestly. Fuckton of health issues, depression, being ugly and stupid and now this I feel like I can't take it anymore.
If I'm suicidal with such minor issues how am I going to survive? I can't imagine myself having a job or anything like this. I think deep down I always thought I would be dead by now. I'm 18 for one month and I already miss being a teenager not even mentioning childhood. Anyway, sorry for how shitty it was written I just woke up and my brain is a mess.