not_here_4_points
beeing myself
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- Nov 8, 2017
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The worst thing for me is seeing beautiful young women who look like they might even be attracted to me. I can't speak to them. My voice hardly works at all, I just give cold shoulders. Nothing else I can do. If I tried to talk it'd be more uncomfortable for everyone. I go out, it's so painful. My voice hardly works, my brain is so fogged over. I can tell so often that I'm making others uncomfortable.
I can't live gainfully in any way. I'm just here fucking things up because my brain fog renders me retarded most the time, I can't even get disability so I'm a deadbeat to my mom.
I feel lust and I can't act. I feel love and I can't act. I feel so many desires that I can't act on. I feel like I suck the life out of everyone and give nothing in return. I want to die painfully, perhaps in a grease fire.
I can't live gainfully in any way. I'm just here fucking things up because my brain fog renders me retarded most the time, I can't even get disability so I'm a deadbeat to my mom.
I feel lust and I can't act. I feel love and I can't act. I feel so many desires that I can't act on. I feel like I suck the life out of everyone and give nothing in return. I want to die painfully, perhaps in a grease fire.