I’m seriously considering suicide: 18 m

[Deleted member 41516]

I’m all alone and have been for awhile. I am 18 with multiple mental illness, highschool dropout, used to do hard drugs at 17, no friends, my own dad put pills on my food, I can’t function and have been bullied. Idk what I even have left in this world, and people always say wait till your older. Wait for what? Nothing will change I will always be a loser I feel like, even tho I hope for a better future I’m just too stuck in the past. Should I seek professional help or seriously just kill myself? Only positive is my dad will still support me but I just can’t cope with this life anymore I feel like

 

[lemon21]

If your father suports you you can do literally whatever you want.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

If your father suports you you can do literally whatever you want.

How so?

 

[BornToLose]

She is a seductive wench, I can't deny.

 

[lemon21]

How so?

You don't have pressure to get money, thus you can literally pursue everything life has to offer. The only thing you won't be able to get is a foid if your looks are pretty bad, but if i were you try to improve your life before considering suicide. Try for a couple more years and if your life continues being shitty you may off yourself

 

[Deleted member 41516]

You don't have pressure to get money, thus you can literally pursue everything life has to offer. The only thing you won't be able to get is a foid if your looks are pretty bad, but if i were you try to improve your life before considering suicide. Try for a couple more years and if your life continues being shitty you may off yourself

How long would you give it? I turn 19 in august so at what age if shit still sucks would you say “fuck it” so to speak?

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

I’m all alone and have been for awhile. I am 18 with multiple mental illness, highschool dropout, used to do hard drugs at 17, no friends, my own dad put pills on my food, I can’t function and have been bullied.

Yes. I am very empathetic with your situation, dear fellowcel. When I was eighteen, I was rotting alone in a basement after months of torment while living in a youth commune.

I'll locate any unmodified recordings I can obtain for you.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

Yes. I am very empathetic with your situation, dear fellowcel. When I was eighteen, I was rotting alone in a basement after months of torment while living in a youth commune.

I'll locate any unmodified recordings I can obtain for you.

How old are you now?

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

How old are you now?

I am in my mid-twenties.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

I am in my mid-twenties.

Has it gotten better since 18? I am autistic too more than likely which I’ve read you say you are. Youth commune is like a supportive living for mental disabilities?

 

[Intellau_Celistic]

Has it gotten better since 18? I am autistic too more than likely which I’ve read you say you are. Youth commune is like a supportive living for mental disabilities?

No. I moved into a supportive housing apartment, but I have other problems right now...

The youth commune was a program for homeless youth. I had problems with Mother and lived alone for some time...

 

[BornToLose]

No. I moved into a supportive housing apartment

Dude that's where I'm at. It's fucking shit. I mean it was okay until this new cunt housemate moved in but now it's fucking shit.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

Dude that's where I'm at. It's fucking shit. I mean it was okay until this new cunt housemate moved in but now it's fucking shit.

Why are you there bro

 

[Deleted member 41516]

Dude that's where I'm at. It's fucking shit. I mean it was okay until this new cunt housemate moved in but now it's fucking shit.

Why are you there bro

 

[BornToLose]

Why are you there bro

Alcoholic depressed incel = this kind of shit.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

Alcoholic depressed incel = this kind of shit.

How old are you

 

[Don Vito]

Go lookmax.org before.

 

[NoLooksNoLife]

Try to euphorically rejoice

 

[BornToLose]

How old are you

Too old. A wizardcel. 30something.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

Too old. A wizardcel. 30something.

Virgin? How long you been alcoholic for? I struggle with substance use too, part of the reason I qualify for SSI now

 

[Lycan]

if i havent ascended by 21 thats my signal that i dont belong on this earth

 

[BornToLose]

Virgin? How long you been alcoholic for? I struggle with substance use too, part of the reason I qualify for SSI now

The alcoholism has comfortably sat side by side with my inceldom all my life. A most brutal life, I have to say.

 

[BlackPilledNeet]

Too old. A wizardcel. 30something.

brootal

 

[Billowel]

relax and enjoy some copes.you are probably stressing too much.have you tried joining youth groups and the like?if you are just rotting and you have zero online prensence,you can't really expect anything to happen even if you are chad.also if you have some plan,do it now.you don't want to end up filled with regrets like myself and many here.rotting and neeting is all fun,until you realize you are older and much uglier and everyone you used to know is married and have 2 kids and got a loan for their first house. you need to try as much as you can to escape this hell. it's true that our lord gives to some of us hard lives,so that we can grow enough to fill certain sits in heaven,but if you can avoid this suffering you should try your best.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

relax and enjoy some copes.you are probably stressing too much.have you tried joining youth groups and the like?if you are just rotting and you have zero online prensence,you can't really expect anything to happen even if you are chad.also if you have some plan,do it now.you don't want to end up filled with regrets like myself and many here.rotting and neeting is all fun,until you realize you are older and much uglier and everyone you used to know is married and have 2 kids and got a loan for their first house. you need to try as much as you can to escape this hell. it's true that our lord gives to some of us hard lives,so that we can grow enough to fill certain sits in heaven,but if you can avoid this suffering you should try your best.

Do you think I’m overthinking it too much?

 

[Billowel]

Do you think I’m overthinking it too much?

when i was your age i also thought about roping 24/7,so i think i semi understand where you are coming from.the truth is,you are still young,and unless you have exhausted all options,you shouldn't cry rivers.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

when i was your age i also thought about roping 24/7,so i think i semi understand where you are coming from.the truth is,you are still young,and unless you have exhausted all options,you shouldn't cry rivers.

How old are you now may I ask,

 

[Billowel]

How old are you now may I ask,

sorry man,ever since i was 12,i learnt to never say your age.i am above 20 though.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

sorry man,ever since i was 12,i learnt to never say your age.i am above 20 though.

I see, man I was using meth at 17, isn’t that a hopeless situation

 

[Billowel]

I see, man I was using meth at 17, isn’t that a hopeless situation

lots of people start meth even younger then that. even women who barely have any issues,can get into it. it is true that god can give very hard lives to some,but until one has lived and tried everything,it's hard to say that x man was really destined for that kinda life.

do you still consume meth?

 

[Deleted member 41516]

lots of people start meth even younger then that. even women who barely have any issues,can get into it. it is true that god can give very hard lives to some,but until one has lived and tried everything,it's hard to say that x man was really destined for that kinda life.

do you still consume meth?

No I don’t last time was October 3rd and I never will again but it tears me up that I ever did do it

 

[Billowel]

No I don’t last time was October 3rd and I never will again but it tears me up that I ever did do it

there is much that i regret that tears me up.so much that i get choked on anxiety and sadness.but there is no point.god will correct the wrongs.there is no point in crying over spilt tears.

 

[Deleted member 41516]

But

there is much that i regret that tears me up.so much that i get choked on anxiety and sadness.but there is no point.god will correct the wrongs.there is no point in crying over spilt tears.

what if I do not believe in god man?

 

[waistgrabber19]

I’m all alone and have been for awhile. I am 18 with multiple mental illness, highschool dropout, used to do hard drugs at 17, no friends, my own dad put pills on my food, I can’t function and have been bullied. Idk what I even have left in this world, and people always say wait till your older. Wait for what? Nothing will change I will always be a loser I feel like, even tho I hope for a better future I’m just too stuck in the past. Should I seek professional help or seriously just kill myself? Only positive is my dad will still support me but I just can’t cope with this life anymore I feel like

Dude. This is pretty serious i know. But if you have goals for the future, some seem to give people some hope. If you don't have any maybe try thinking of some. You should seek professional help. Or get somebody to let all your feelings out 2. That helps alot. Its a good thing yur dad is supporting you. If you died, you wuld just make everyone sad and scar them. If you need someone to talk to, u can talk to me. don't hesitate to get help

 

[Deleted member 41516]

Dude. This is pretty serious i know. But if you have goals for the future, some seem to give people some hope. If you don't have any maybe try thinking of some. You should seek professional help. Or get somebody to let all your feelings out 2. That helps alot. Its a good thing yur dad is supporting you. If you died, you wuld just make everyone sad and scar them. If you need someone to talk to, u can talk to me. don't hesitate to get help

How do I private message you

 

[Billowel]

But

what if I do not believe in god man?

that's the wrong way to looks at things.if one looks at the world without the right lenses,everthing will look blurry and unfocused.one needs to understand what life was made for,if he wants to live life.otherwise he will go from pleasure to pleasure,not understanding anything about life,till the times comes for him to die.you can look at my sig,if you are curious.some of the books might help you.


sometimes one can make an argument without bringing our lord into the question,but even that is missing the entire picture.what does it matter if one gets healed of some disease,if he justs go ahead and commits atrocity after atrocity?

eitherway,have you tried making real life friends and joining some type of community?many people find solace amongst friends and hobbies,so if your intent is to quench the pain for a while,you can think of hobbymaxing or something of the sort.it works for a lot of people.anything that might direct our attention away from our suffering is good.

have you ever read the book of job?it's a text in the holy bible about god and his anwser to the pleas of a man who suffers extremely 24/7.you might find some interest in it.many people who weren't even christrian(many philosophers and scientists) found wisdom in the holy bible, so the book of job might help you quite a bit.

 

[Kabsacel]

If your father suports you you can do literally whatever you want.

This,atleast you have someone who is tbere for you

 

[Oroborus]

The earlier the better

 

[1337hikki]

No I don’t last time was October 3rd and I never will again but it tears me up that I ever did do it

Y? Meth is a great drug I wish I started at ur age
Also any opioid works great to counter suicidal urges just don't use them all the time

 

[LesscoBlob]

that's the wrong way to looks at things.if one looks at the world without the right lenses,everthing will look blurry and unfocused.one needs to understand what life was made for,if he wants to live life.otherwise he will go from pleasure to pleasure,not understanding anything about life,till the times comes for him to die.you can look at my sig,if you are curious.some of the books might help you.


sometimes one can make an argument without bringing our lord into the question,but even that is missing the entire picture.what does it matter if one gets healed of some disease,if he justs go ahead and commits atrocity after atrocity?

eitherway,have you tried making real life friends and joining some type of community?many people find solace amongst friends and hobbies,so if your intent is to quench the pain for a while,you can think of hobbymaxing or something of the sort.it works for a lot of people.anything that might direct our attention away from our suffering is good.

have you ever read the book of job?it's a text in the holy bible about god and his anwser to the pleas of a man who suffers extremely 24/7.you might find some interest in it.many people who weren't even christrian(many philosophers and scientists) found wisdom in the holy bible, so the book of job might help you quite a bit.

Based and Christpilled. But yes, hobbymaxxing and Häagen-Dazs is a great idea

 

[Deleted member 41516]

Y? Meth is a great drug I wish I started at ur age
Also any opioid works great to counter suicidal urges just don't use them all the time

Fuck no it ain’t