i love video games, a way i coped for being bullied and outcasted from school social life, 2018 was the happiest year i had been playing warframe with a group of friends online, absolutely fucking hated that game but i enjoyed the company and being able to speak to actual people i considered friends .These people accepted who i was and not by the way i looked, which was one of the reasons i never tried making any friends or trying to save my reputation in school. when lockdown happened, i had nobody to reach out to. The few friends i did have invited me to play fortnite for a few weeks and then what little i had of a friend group disbanded leaving me to utter loneliness again. I didn't really care at first and resorted to playing single player games for a long time before Terraria's npcs made me feel how fucking lonely i actually was. The only form of social interaction i was getting was from a low-functioning AI with a few dialogue options. And don't even fucking get me started on cyberpunk.
My life from there wasn't interesting, from there it was just like many others, i went through a cycle of bluepill, redpill and then realising both of those are utter cope. I miss 2018 so much, im sitting here playing the elden ring dlc with no one to talk to and logged off like 5 minutes after. Just a quick vent because i just feel so fucking lonely its insane, i can't even bring myself to play video games.
My life from there wasn't interesting, from there it was just like many others, i went through a cycle of bluepill, redpill and then realising both of those are utter cope. I miss 2018 so much, im sitting here playing the elden ring dlc with no one to talk to and logged off like 5 minutes after. Just a quick vent because i just feel so fucking lonely its insane, i can't even bring myself to play video games.
