I'm persona non grata everywhere

[not_here_4_points]

That's what I get for being unable to hide my discomfort and tics, wearing a hoodie and an uncomfortable face because I feel terrible and don't want others to talk to me, lest I be forced to make an awkward nod because I can't speak properly.

I don't even know if I'm ugly because I have severe body dysmorphic disorder, can't be at peace in mind because of my ocd and physical discomfort. My life is misery. I can't wait til the day I meet my maker.

A while ago there was a meme on reddit, when someone said their age another would calculate how many days til they die if they live til the average life expectancy. It was supposed to cause discomfort, be a troll I guess. I used that as a fucking reassurance. Thinking I won't have to live past that.


It'll end soon enough, I know this.

 

[QuantumDummy]

That's what I get for being unable to hide my discomfort and tics, wearing a hoodie and an uncomfortable face because I feel terrible and don't want others to talk to me, lest I be forced to make an awkward nod because I can't speak properly.

I don't even know if I'm ugly because I have severe body dysmorphic disorder, can't be at peace in mind because of my ocd and physical discomfort. My life is misery. I can't wait til the day I meet my maker.

A while ago there was a meme on reddit, when someone said their age another would calculate how many days til they die if they live til the average life expectancy. It was supposed to cause discomfort, be a troll I guess. I used that as a fucking reassurance. Thinking I won't have to live past that.


It'll end soon enough, I know this.

Wow, you summed up a lot of what I feel ALL the time. I even had to look up the phrase in the title, meaning we're not accepted/welcomed by others. I'm the same with being unable to hide my discomfort, its written all over my face and is literally near-fuckin' impossible to let go of. I'm also pretty sure I have OCD since I do obsess over shit. I'm positive I'm ugly since women show 0 interest in me and people constantly look away from my face, I notice it from my peripherals.