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Aspergcel
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I don’t know why, but I follow alot of teenage girls on social media. Mostly 13 to 16 year olds. Most of them are famous influencers. Do I think they’re attractive? Yes. Do I have sexual thoughts about them? No. I’m just obsessed with their personal lives. I think it’s due to the fact that I never got to experience the life of a teenager. When I was in middle school, I had severe social anxiety. Because of this, I was always avoiding people and not doing anything with my life. I’m actually crying as I’m writing this post. I never got to be a teenager. Your teenage years are supposed to be precious and full of beautiful memories. But I only have bad memories. Mostly bullying and isolation. I wasted my precious teenage years by being socially isolated. I think this might be the reason I’m obsessed with teenagers and their lives. Even when I go outside and see teenagers, I get depressed because I never got to live my life like them. I’m having suicidal thoughts right now. My parents never got me the help I needed. My father was an addict who didn’t care about our family. My mother tried to help me by sending me to a therapist, but I was stubborn and didn’t want to go. I fucked up badly. I wish they would have given me medicine to reduce my anxiety. I’m an adult and I completely missed out on my teenage years. During my teenage years, I was all alone. It’s like a blank period. My memories of that period are blurry. I’ll never experience the life of a teenager. I can only pretend and imagine. So now I just stalk teenage girls on Instagram and TikTok, admiring their personal lives and wishing I lived like them.