I went to every singles' dance. I live in New York. I went to a dance every weekend. There were plenty here. I went to socials, dating sites, you name it. This is New York. I went everywhere to meet. Well not bars and clubs, because Wouldn't fit in.
I would read the newspapers for events to go to.
Millions of people here in New York. I try to talk to girls on the train, street, bookstore, you name it.
They all thought I was creepy.
I tried in high school, college. I went to Brooklyn College in the 1980's.. Tons of girls there. I tried hard there. I joined many clubs. No luck.
You did everything than what was a simple option to do because you are an egoist (ironically while being a failure at life)
YOU COULD HAVE SIMPLY PAID FOR IT.
Baby steps (I shouldn't have to tell an old man this)
Solve your problems one at a time
You ever think you should have worked on the "I'm a virgin problem" first before endlessly chasing after failed attempts at "finding love". Ever think that if you lost your virginity you would be less "awkward/creepy" around women and that would increase your chances with women.
After I lost my virginity to prostitute I stopped feeling so anxious around women, it didn't matter anymore. I started to act differently around them. As long as you're a virgin there's always going to this anxiety and "sense of urgency" in your attempts to get her to fuck you, and she is going to see it in the way you talk and how you talk to her.
The normie advice of "just be confident" is BS, confidence is something gained in experience, and since you haven't been sexual with any women you don't have any confidence in them seeing you as a "sexual being". You are going to "push to hard" in your attempts to get laid and they are going to see that you are desperate. Remember were not Chad, chad pushes hard its sexy, we push hard its creepy, were trying too hard, were desperate.
Your problem is that you have the mind of a child, even after decades you've failed to grow up and truly accept this harsh reality, nobody deserves anything, you don't deserve to be loved. You had decades worth of chances to lose your virginity but you put your entire life on hold to chase after a goal that was further out of your reach than other minor goals that you could have solved.
You'd think something like this would be common sense, did it ever dawn upon you to simply tackle the smaller problems first, lose your virginity first then chase after love (a harder task than losing your virginity), because at least if you finally get her to the bedroom you aren't completely helpless. Did you even think this through, lets say you had finally gotten a woman in your 40's, you will be a 40 year old virgin with no bedroom skills at all and that woman will likely be in your age group or above and well versed, how the hell are you going to please a woman like that?
For men like you it is truly over, your life is basically over already, you are at the edge of deaths door, but its not over because life is unfair, its over because you refused to be logical and deal with the options you had available, you had decades man, decades, no excuse at all.
Seriously what is there left for you to do, you are so old now that your libido is likely dying or dead, you won't be able to enjoy sex much anymore if at all, there aren't any 50 year old virgin females willing to "show you the ropes" and you are an egoist so you aren't going to pay for it, so you have literally admitted here that you plan to remain a virgin till your death (whether you realize it or not). Your health is deteriorating and you haven't even "began to live" yet. I can't see how you haven't offed yourself yet, out of every poster I have ever met online you have the least to live for.
A literal cuck has my respect more than you do, I'm not joking, especially if he's young, because he has years to stop being a cuck and change is life, you have no time left, its over, the line
ITS OVER, counts more for you than any user on this site, how does one even let themselves get to this state. This is too pathetic, and the lack of responsibility you show is whats truly sickening, this "there's nothing I could have done" attitude. Like you have no spine, I've never seen anyone this pathetic, maybe you should have just betabuxed if this is the attitude you have towards life, you let life walk all over you, you might as well have let a woman do it too and at least get laid.
If I met you in real life I'd probably try to kill you. Guys like you are my
[RageFuel]
