I can't take alcohoI because it takes more and more to numb myself, i've tried it. And can't smoke weed because of the paranoia that it gives. Cigarettes give me headaches. Iave a good diet and good sleep (i can't work because i live in a louder city and if i would work nightime i would be dealing with another problems). My plans now is to care of my mom and go to an hostel to live with poor people. I can't stand marry a woman who will speak loud on my ears and take half my apartment. I rather assign a paper to give my apartment to an institution for poors when i die while i live in that hostel, you fell me?