SnakeCel
Disciple Of Saint Hamudi
★★★
- Joined
- Apr 8, 2022
- Posts
- 1,749
Even the most basic shit like showering and washing my clothing is becoming a difficult task once again. Responding to an email or a text message is monumental and impossible for me to do, it could take me weeks. I procrastinate on everything. My sleep schedule is completely reversed. I go to sleep at 7 AM and wake up at 4 PM. It's insane how little I can get done in a day. I don't go to the gym and gymcope anymore. I can hardly play a video game or watch a show or a movie for more than 30 minutes at a time. Even cooming has been extremely difficult lately to be completely honest, it's like I'm all out of juice.
What even is there left for me? My copes are hardly working now. I can't even remember the last time when I had a happy feeling. Or really any feeling that wasn't despair or depression. I'm disgusted with the state of my life and how far I've fallen. How much everything has deteriorated. And yet I cannot change anything about it, I don't even feel the motivation to change or improve anything in my life right now.
What even is there left for me? My copes are hardly working now. I can't even remember the last time when I had a happy feeling. Or really any feeling that wasn't despair or depression. I'm disgusted with the state of my life and how far I've fallen. How much everything has deteriorated. And yet I cannot change anything about it, I don't even feel the motivation to change or improve anything in my life right now.