im in a horrible state

[fullofchagrin]

i have been drinking everyday recently, but alcohol totally destroys me, i don't get any hangovers but it makes me extremely tired. and i am already really tired even without alcohol. like, my head keeps falling down because i literally don't have enough energy to keep my neck up straight. i have been LDARing for a full year now, like literally all year long just in bed or rotting on my PC, and in a couple days i have to start with some group therapy bullshit now, LMAO, supposedly that's supposed to fix my depression, and i also have to bring workout clothes because apparently physical activity is a part of the therapy bullshit, Like for FUCKS SACKE i even typing on a keyboard is so fucking hard due to my fatigue, and they want me to do sports???? and that's supposedly going to fix my depresion. fuck this shit man, i really think i am going to die of suicide soon, because it just keeps getting worse, 3 years ago i was swole as fuck, 1.5 years ago i was still working part time, now i can barely talk, it keeps getting worse with no sigh of improvement ever, no fucking idea what could possibly be my fate other than death soon



i wish i had at least someone to talk to, or someone to drink with. i am so fucking doomed

 

[fullofchagrin]

this group therapy shit is going to be the first time social contact for me in a LONG time, i dont know how im going to do it, i barely feel human anymore, don't know how im supposed to socialize with others. At least, theres going to be other losers like me (although i doubt any of them are close to being as loser as i am) so hopefully i wont get mogged too hard

 

[fullofchagrin]

I am trying really hard to stay off alcohol now until then, because it destroys me more and more, at least i will delay the inevitable, maybe hope for a miracle

 

[fullofchagrin]

even on an incel forum, no one will talk to me, JFL, fuck k my life

 

[zd60]

i've been in a same type of horrible state for years, i've got chronic fatiuge and pain just all over, sleep like shit, abuse alcohol and other drugs that i can get can barley walk anymore without excruciating pain and have lost all my teeth life is a miserable hell no matter what

 

[fullofchagrin]

i've been in a same type of horrible state for years, i've got chronic fatiuge and pain just all over, sleep like shit, abuse alcohol and other drugs that i can get can barley walk anymore without excruciating pain and have lost all my teeth life is a miserable hell no matter what

it is so absurd, i don't even fucking understand why im like this, how others can function normally, and the doctors and theRAPISTS all fucking act like there is nothing wrong with me, i am walking and talking like a zombie, and they expect me to show up at places and do physical exercise, bullshit. i wonder if they are oblivious or just apathetic, if i am just schizophrenic or something, or if im living in a simulation and everyone just acts like that to confuse me to further torment me

 

[zd60]

it is so absurd, i don't even fucking understand why im like this, how others can function normally, and the doctors and theRAPISTS all fucking act like there is nothing wrong with me, i am walking and talking like a zombie, and they expect me to show up at places and do physical exercise, bullshit. i wonder if they are oblivious or just apathetic, if i am just schizophrenic or something, or if im living in a simulation and everyone just acts like that to confuse me to further torment me

I don't even bother going to those fucking slimey vile fucks they are nothing but people tring to prolong your suffering and sell you bullshit, i've never been able to function normally like others i've always felt like nothing more but some walking corpse or a mind being tortured trapped in a meat suit its all a endless hell

 

[fullofchagrin]

I don't even bother going to those fucking slimey vile fucks they are nothing but people tring to prolong your suffering and sell you bullshit, i've never been able to function normally like others i've always felt like nothing more but some walking corpse or a mind being tortured trapped in a meat suit its all a endless hell

are you NEET? you get neetbux?

 

[zd60]

are you NEET? you get neetbux?

i'm a NEET but no neetbux, i just live off what my parents let me have sometimes they kick me out and let me come back usually eventually ill just have to kill myself all my money i get goes to drugs

 

[fullofchagrin]

i'm a NEET but no neetbux, i just live off what my parents let me have sometimes they kick me out and let me come back usually eventually ill just have to kill myself all my money i get goes to drugs

seems like we share the same fate brother

 

[zd60]

seems like we share the same fate brother

 

[Moth]

even on an incel forum, no one will talk to me, JFL, fuck my life

You're always welcome to talk to me, mate.

 

[fullofchagrin]

You're always welcome to talk to me, mate.

thanks brocel

 

[Moth]

Are you trying to quit alcohol or have you just resigned yourself to the path you're travelling?

 

[fullofchagrin]

Are you trying to quit alcohol or have you just resigned yourself to the path you're travelling?

not sure what you mean with the second part of your sentence, but i wouldn't say im trying to quit alcohol, im just trying to not drink for a few days because i have been drinking too much lately and it's fucking me up, i will try to be in a better state to go to the new group therapy thing

 

[Emba]

My condolences bro

I to tired is

 

[fullofchagrin]

I to tired is

me tireder is


i just drank again i think im gona die


i dont have any more liquor left i need to buy a new bottle tomorrow

 

[Emba]

me tireder is


i just drank again i think im gona die


i dont have any more liquor left i need to buy a new bottle tomorrow

Mogs me

All I got is morphine drops

 

[phonoix6x]

Yeah i also have extreme depression and chronic fatigue and nothing has worked but I have started drinking recently which actually helps in the short term but in the long term like you described the fatigue gets even worse.

I've also been forced to attend group therapy before and I don't know about you but I found it completely useless i wasn't able to connect with anyone and it served me no benefit, I honestly think that since I had depression since like 11 that I am reaching some sort of other dimension of depression I can barely feel anything anymore and I have completely forgotten who I am and the worst thing about it is that it has made me develop several other mental impairments , whenever I thought it couldn't get worse it always got worse i feel like I've been living the same day on repeat for the last couple of years .

 

[Pikacel]

i have been drinking everyday recently, but alcohol totally destroys me, i don't get any hangovers but it makes me extremely tired. and i am already really tired even without alcohol. like, my head keeps falling down because i literally don't have enough energy to keep my neck up straight. i have been LDARing for a full year now, like literally all year long just in bed or rotting on my PC, and in a couple days i have to start with some group therapy bullshit now, LMAO, supposedly that's supposed to fix my depression, and i also have to bring workout clothes because apparently physical activity is a part of the therapy bullshit, Like for FUCKS SACKE i even typing on a keyboard is so fucking hard due to my fatigue, and they want me to do sports???? and that's supposedly going to fix my depresion. fuck this shit man, i really think i am going to die of suicide soon, because it just keeps getting worse, 3 years ago i was swole as fuck, 1.5 years ago i was still working part time, now i can barely talk, it keeps getting worse with no sigh of improvement ever, no fucking idea what could possibly be my fate other than death soon



i wish i had at least someone to talk to, or someone to drink with. i am so fucking doomed

Been LDARing my whole LIEF. It’s kinda gay, so much potential things and aspirations I am missing out on

 

[flute_snoop]

not sure what you mean with the second part of your sentence, but i wouldn't say im trying to quit alcohol, im just trying to not drink for a few days because i have been drinking too much lately and it's fucking me up, i will try to be in a better state to go to the new group therapy thing

drinking used to make my depression worse, not sure if it's the same for you.