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It’s crazy. I went to community college for 4 years and I hated it there. I made 0 friends, dealt with severe ocd ruining my life and interfering with my entire life schedule at the time, which is partially why i struggled focusing on schoolwork and, in turn, finished in 4 instead of 2 years with an associates degree. It was impossible making friends there at community college because everyone just drives to class and drives back home, and I was never attracted to the girls on my campus because they literally looked differently from most girls that I saw in HS (no i'm not stacy only). Either way, i couldn't date at the time due to severe OCD interfering with my life. I spent a lot of time dealing with severe ocd during a lot of the day and thus dating wouldn't have worked out, let alone sex. It would've interfered with my ability to handle a date without needing to do rituals or do sex without rituals. (look up OCD ritual if you don't know what that is).
Then after community college, I put the ocd past me but i was in the middle of quarantine and i was stuck in my hometown which is a small suburban town and that's very few young adults (18-29) in my hometown. Everyone's either under 18 or over 30 married. I was a locationcel during these first 5 years following high school graduation (I was class of 2016). I never had opportunities to even talk to a girl other than HS. in HS i never asked girls out because my Arab muslim parents said i couldn't date until after HS and i was afraid to rebel against them. I should've rebelled against them but i bet my overprotective helicopter mom who sheltered me from the big bad world would've done everything she could to stop me, so Idk if it would've worked out (maybe it would've).
I don't know if women would find me unattractive. Who knows? I never tested it out and I cannot jump from hypothesis to conclusion. I'm almost 24 and I'm still a kissless virgin. I didn't know that people wasted their first kiss onto a friend/acquaintance until i was in my early 20s. before that, i assumed people did that only to a GF/BF.
I cannot tell a woman I date that i'm a virgin, at my age it's a red flag. It's only safe to tell her if you're under 20. Uni is my last chance to finally ascend and get laid. This is my last chance and I'm gonna try and see. I joined a discord server for transfer students and other juniors (i'm a junior creditwise but yearwise i'm a supersenior because i was at community college for 4 years then took a gap year as a NEET). Apparently I have two college apartment parties to go to: one in a couple days and the other the following weekend). Nobody on there knows what I look like, and i don't know what 95% of them look like.
This is my last chance to finally make friends and get laid, because although i made friends in the first 18 years of my life, i made zero after HS. i had no opportunities because of mental illness and community college and quarantine and the fact that my hometown lacks young adults. my HS friends all moved away from town and went to uni and i haven't seen them in so long. One of them i grew apart from (he doesn't notice/realize it but i do) and only one i still hang out regularly with.
My early 20s sucked, i wanna enjoy my mid-late 20s and make up for it. This is uni, my last chance to make friends, get laid and have a college experience. I'll be turning 24 not too much later. I wanna be able to enjoy my young adulthood after dealing with pain for the past 5 years.
This will also be the first time living on my own. I won't live with my parents anymore which is great because i cannot stand it anymore.
I'm scared shitless but this is my last chance. If i fail, i might rope.
wish me luck.
@52baldcurryjanitor @FrothySolutions @ordinaryotaku
Then after community college, I put the ocd past me but i was in the middle of quarantine and i was stuck in my hometown which is a small suburban town and that's very few young adults (18-29) in my hometown. Everyone's either under 18 or over 30 married. I was a locationcel during these first 5 years following high school graduation (I was class of 2016). I never had opportunities to even talk to a girl other than HS. in HS i never asked girls out because my Arab muslim parents said i couldn't date until after HS and i was afraid to rebel against them. I should've rebelled against them but i bet my overprotective helicopter mom who sheltered me from the big bad world would've done everything she could to stop me, so Idk if it would've worked out (maybe it would've).
I don't know if women would find me unattractive. Who knows? I never tested it out and I cannot jump from hypothesis to conclusion. I'm almost 24 and I'm still a kissless virgin. I didn't know that people wasted their first kiss onto a friend/acquaintance until i was in my early 20s. before that, i assumed people did that only to a GF/BF.
I cannot tell a woman I date that i'm a virgin, at my age it's a red flag. It's only safe to tell her if you're under 20. Uni is my last chance to finally ascend and get laid. This is my last chance and I'm gonna try and see. I joined a discord server for transfer students and other juniors (i'm a junior creditwise but yearwise i'm a supersenior because i was at community college for 4 years then took a gap year as a NEET). Apparently I have two college apartment parties to go to: one in a couple days and the other the following weekend). Nobody on there knows what I look like, and i don't know what 95% of them look like.
This is my last chance to finally make friends and get laid, because although i made friends in the first 18 years of my life, i made zero after HS. i had no opportunities because of mental illness and community college and quarantine and the fact that my hometown lacks young adults. my HS friends all moved away from town and went to uni and i haven't seen them in so long. One of them i grew apart from (he doesn't notice/realize it but i do) and only one i still hang out regularly with.
My early 20s sucked, i wanna enjoy my mid-late 20s and make up for it. This is uni, my last chance to make friends, get laid and have a college experience. I'll be turning 24 not too much later. I wanna be able to enjoy my young adulthood after dealing with pain for the past 5 years.
This will also be the first time living on my own. I won't live with my parents anymore which is great because i cannot stand it anymore.
I'm scared shitless but this is my last chance. If i fail, i might rope.
wish me luck.
@52baldcurryjanitor @FrothySolutions @ordinaryotaku
