Holy shit.
I don't know how much more I can take. I am breathing shallow as fuck. I was pacing up and down in the kitchen a moment ago. I have been sat, staring into space for most of tonight. I kept going back to sleep all day today. The last time I woke up was at 5pm.
The looks pill and age pill are fucking me over big time. I still feel 20 yo. I still haven't had many of the experiences or as many experiences as a normie 20 yo. I still feel youthful. I still feel like I want do have the freedom that 20 yos have. But I am stuck in an aged face and body.
It's a joke that transgender women (so, men, basically) who feel they are the wrong sex can transition and we are supposed to fall into line with their feelings, but I actually WAS a 20 yo once yet no one will ever see me as one again.
I need bludgeoning and murdering ASAP. The only time I feel at some sort of peace is when I'm asleep. My friend (ArabIncel) killed himself last year cuz he was 28 and knew he was going to die alone. He saw old lonely men come into the restaurant where he worked and would sit there all evening for like 5 hours eating one meal cuz they had no wife at home. He didn't want that for himself so he OD'd on some pills. I feel like I need to go too. It's almost as if he showed me that there is a way out of this mess.
This incel/looks/agepill shit is literally the default thought in my head. It's the ONLY thing I think of. I can't distract myself with anything else except videogames but I am not a NEET and don't have time for videogames much. I am forced to constantly swallow blackpills every second I'm awake.
God. I can't cope. Am I the only one like this?
I don't know how much more I can take. I am breathing shallow as fuck. I was pacing up and down in the kitchen a moment ago. I have been sat, staring into space for most of tonight. I kept going back to sleep all day today. The last time I woke up was at 5pm.
The looks pill and age pill are fucking me over big time. I still feel 20 yo. I still haven't had many of the experiences or as many experiences as a normie 20 yo. I still feel youthful. I still feel like I want do have the freedom that 20 yos have. But I am stuck in an aged face and body.
It's a joke that transgender women (so, men, basically) who feel they are the wrong sex can transition and we are supposed to fall into line with their feelings, but I actually WAS a 20 yo once yet no one will ever see me as one again.
I need bludgeoning and murdering ASAP. The only time I feel at some sort of peace is when I'm asleep. My friend (ArabIncel) killed himself last year cuz he was 28 and knew he was going to die alone. He saw old lonely men come into the restaurant where he worked and would sit there all evening for like 5 hours eating one meal cuz they had no wife at home. He didn't want that for himself so he OD'd on some pills. I feel like I need to go too. It's almost as if he showed me that there is a way out of this mess.
This incel/looks/agepill shit is literally the default thought in my head. It's the ONLY thing I think of. I can't distract myself with anything else except videogames but I am not a NEET and don't have time for videogames much. I am forced to constantly swallow blackpills every second I'm awake.
God. I can't cope. Am I the only one like this?
