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I've been diagnosed with an eye disease about two years ago, i'm losing my sight gradually, i find it hard to cope really.
When it comes to physical features, i'm in the bottom even here on this forum, ugly face, short, balding, hairy and i have a small dick. I hated myself for that, i've been bullied and i have been called some harsh shit in my life but believe me when i say that nothing, and i mean NOTHING comes closes to the pain i feel when i found out that i'm losing vision.
I've also wanted to be a tattoo artist and learned all the skills for that but now i will just need to throw away everything i've learned and gathered.
My family are shocked, seeing them hurting for me is even more hurtful. I'll probably end up a burden to them. There is nothing i can do about it, this disease has no cure. I'll have to let go of my hobbies, my dream job, everything.
I use .is to bitch about blackpill just to forget what i'm going through. It's like every door is closed to me and no matter what i do or how hard i try. I'll never find happiness. I've felt ugly, i've felt rejected, i've felt depressed. Now ? It's just complete powerlessness and hopelessness.
I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel, and if i had the chance to press a button to disappear, i will press it without hesitation. Nowadays, all my fantasies about this, i don't fantasize about women or love or even a good life. I just don't wanna be here anymore.
When it comes to physical features, i'm in the bottom even here on this forum, ugly face, short, balding, hairy and i have a small dick. I hated myself for that, i've been bullied and i have been called some harsh shit in my life but believe me when i say that nothing, and i mean NOTHING comes closes to the pain i feel when i found out that i'm losing vision.
I've also wanted to be a tattoo artist and learned all the skills for that but now i will just need to throw away everything i've learned and gathered.
My family are shocked, seeing them hurting for me is even more hurtful. I'll probably end up a burden to them. There is nothing i can do about it, this disease has no cure. I'll have to let go of my hobbies, my dream job, everything.
I use .is to bitch about blackpill just to forget what i'm going through. It's like every door is closed to me and no matter what i do or how hard i try. I'll never find happiness. I've felt ugly, i've felt rejected, i've felt depressed. Now ? It's just complete powerlessness and hopelessness.
I don't see any light at the end of the tunnel, and if i had the chance to press a button to disappear, i will press it without hesitation. Nowadays, all my fantasies about this, i don't fantasize about women or love or even a good life. I just don't wanna be here anymore.
