I'm done

[Deleted member 6214]

I'm too depressed and too far gone. Third time I've cried this week, thinking about bullying at high school. What makes the bullying hard to move past is that they specifically targeted my looks and kept telling me year upon year that "no one likes me". After being bullied at school and going home with bad grades, my dad would insult me calling me the worst names possible. He called me gay, a female, no balls, ugly, low confidence trash (exact words). He asked me why I couldn't be like other boys who were confident and happy. This happened only once or twice a year, and apart from his outbursts, he is a great dad. But he scarred me with his insulting words.

How am I meant to live, knowing that everyone at school hated me and my dad is probably secretly ashamed of me for being a failure.

When I think about it, I don't think surgery can help me anymore. I've lost my teenage years and I don't know how to talk to people or make friends. I'm low energy, depressed and keep thinking every single day about bullying and insults. I cope by eating fucking junk food and watching porn, and I can't quit.

Fuck my ascension plan. It's not going to change anything. It's just over.

 

[TheOnlyWei]

Have you talked to your parents about this?
What about finishing your schooling online?

 

[SilentSoup]

I feel bad for you man... that sucks.

Your dad especially sounds like an asshole. That's not fair.

Good luck man.

 

[metal]

I am in the same situation and nothing will change

 

[jastro8]

How old are you, OP?

 

[Septembercel]

I feel the same way as you,
I'm going to surgerymaxx but if it wont work I'm killing myself

 

[CopeWithTheRope]

damn

 

[TheRealChincel]

Oddly enough it’s been doctors or teachers who bullied or insulted me the most. I’ve been made fun of for my proportions, called slow, useless, lazy, etc. Did that make me want to quit? No, but it sure hinted at how women would see me except they were worse.

 

[ValiantThor2]

Ive felt the exact same way with the last few weeks being particularly bad. Serious loneliness and isolation, unable to form relationships with people, self loathing from extreme bullying at school, My mum not being a decent parent figure, regret of my teen years being over & life just passing by etc. I feel like I'm living in a nightmare but I don't have the balls to rope yet.

 

[FaceandHFD]

Ive felt the exact same way with the last few weeks being particularly bad. Serious loneliness and isolation, unable to form relationships with people, self loathing from extreme bullying at school, My mum not being a decent parent figure, regret of my teen years being over & life just passing by etc. I feel like I'm living in a nightmare but I don't have the balls to rope yet.

 

[turbocuckcel_7000]

you can't give up this early man, all the time I think how i should have tried harder when i was still in high school / college, instead of trying to make it now

i'm not even gonna tell you what my life is like right now to not depress you further

 

[Deleted member 14120]

Your father sounds like an asshole. That's inappropiate, he doesn't know that will lead you into criminality. Does he drink or abuse you physically?

I would recommend you talk with the school therapist and ask for the JROTC program. Just trying to help.

 

[Deleted member 14490]

How tall are you boyo and what would you rate yourself facially?

 

[Deleted member 10124]

I feel bad for you man... that sucks.

Your dad especially sounds like an asshole. That's not fair.

Good luck man.

 

[IHateMySelf]

 

[AsiaCel]

Teach your bullies a lesson

 

[Blacktarpill]

Your avi says what to do.

 

[janoycresva]

if you're still in HS, it'll get better in college man trust me. Start gymceling, it won't get you laid but people won't mess with you. ROTC like one user above said maybe a good thing once you get to college, you'll def make friends that way and nobody will bully someone in a military uniform srs.

 

[Deleted member 677]

Teach your bullies a lesson