I'm a porn addict. I spend countless hours watching hardcore degenerate shit when I'm feeling down to escape from this world. I know nofap is cope and won't help with my looks but I think it's worth to try. I've been trying to quit porn for a long time but I always get drawn back in. Watching porn has increased my hatred for women and people in general and made me more a toxic and anxious person. When I talk to people the first thing I do is imagine what there privates look like and what they might look like fucking. I do this with random people I see. I used to chose watching girls get nutted on than spend time with my family and friends when I was younger, when I was in college I would procrasibate when I had projects due which would negatively effect my grades. I think this effected my social skills a lot. I need to unplug my internet and get a new cope. I try to read but I'm lowiq and my brain doesn't really retain anything anymore since I left college. I've been feeling a lot more worthless and full of pity lately. Today I'm on like day 5 of not jerking off but I can't stop peaking at porn. My dick is basically broken with death grip and I'm not satisfied with the quality of my erections. One of my biggest copes is getting high and watching porn because it feels like real life. I would edge for hrs in a sweaty cummy mess. Last night I even had sex dreams. I spread some girl butt cheeks and there was a huge turd on her butthole. Anyone else struggling with porn addiction or addiction in general, even as I write this all I can think about is big booty hoes. Sorry for the rant but it did feel good to write this lol.
